...::* Happy Belated Birthday *::...

Happy Belated Birthday To my Dar.
This the only gift I manage to make and give to him.
I rushed to make it for Dar on my birthday.
I had make the shape few days before my birthday.
I taught it won't be success so I did not plan to continue.
But ended up with finishing it on my birthday.
I had done it and given to dar but is not dried yet till now.

Ta Da~


Chocolate cake.
Ugly cake right?
haha...

...::* Outings *::...

I had changed or what?
Whenever we went out with presents of my dar,
We will definitely quarrel.
What's the point of quarrel?
Ended up with "beh song" to each other.
Is our problem but why should we make it and show it to the world?

Is so much pain that you hurt my hands.
Rather to be have scars by my baby girl.
The strength that guys and girls are different.
Although my strength might increased from the camp but is still me.
After back from camp,
I'm not behaving like "the previous me".
But you have to give me time to return back to usual me.

Sorry friend, Theng.
I had troubled you too.
No next time ba^^.
Thanks friend. lol..

Another hour is coming,
Enjoy life should be the first thing.

...::* Manja *::...

Hohoho~
Seems to be more "manja" now.
What changes I had made after camp?
I change to be more manja with mom. lol..

Before getting to camp,
I throw my tempered to my parents without caring what they feel.
During camp's life,
I felt guilty and bad.
My parents came visit me every weekend.
They woke up so early for me.
Daddy spend 6 hours of driving.
Mammy cooks early in the morning.
They are really 'WEI DA'.
lol..

I do ask them not to come for few weekend.
They still have all kind of reason for visiting me.
Is so much GUILT!!!

In my dorm, I'm well-known with "anak manja".
Most of my dorm mates taught I'm youngest or the only daughter.
After knowing I'm the second daughter,
They asked why I so manja? lol..
I don't know why.. haha..

For now,
I'm trying not to throw my temper to them.
I should be grateful.
Thanks God. lol..


As for my dar,
I had shared the love I had given him with my family.
Hope dar will understand me ba..
Sorry dar~
I have not been good to you since I had return from camp.
I really wants to treat you like previous but I don't know why I can't.
Maybe I've grow up? A matured thinking I have?
No idea..
Once again sorry dar,
And also my family...

...::* Still frustrating *::...

Any how college life will start on May.
Currently, I'm classifying myself as useless people.
Wasting time at home eat, sleep and play.
Is so lifeless. I want to do something useful.

Once registration had not been made,

I still have the decision.

I don't know what career I'll go after foundation in science.
I don't know I can handle my studies or not.
I don't know whether I'll give up in middle of studies.
I don't want to waste time and money if I failed in halfway.
I don't want my parent's money to be waste.
I don't wish my younger sis and bro face financial problem to continue study.
So I chosen foundation of arts.

Kok Leong!!! You influenced me to think "SO THE MUCH THINGS".
Hohoho.. No choice.. The "KL".
Lucky I have less lines in my palm.
I think when problem really comes.


Thanks Ca to letting me know more information.
I seems to be not care about the course that chosen.
After conversation with you, I did do my research.
I know I shouldn't think the way I am but I really can't make myself to be selfish.

I get to know what accounting, auditor, financing and marketing is.
Thanks to Eejay to share your experience too.
I know there are more career classified into art.
Mainly these four are what I know.
Before Sunday comes, I'll be searching and reading bout all this.


There is no one to help me to choose my course.
I know about it but all I want is advice and talks.
Dar seems to not care bout my feelings.
I'm in frustrating condition and I don't need supports.
All I need was advice.
I know you'll sees this I don't care.
I'm here to express my feelings.
You have not been caring for your own studies.
But I have to.. Time will not wait us.
I'm bored with searching information about culinary as you are not interested.
You just don't help me. You did not advice me...
I need you to share my feelings.
As I don't know why I don't share and tell my problems to others.
I don't tell doesn't mean I have no problems.
I tell doesn't mean I have tell you all my problems.
You questioned why I have nothing to talk.
Can you help after I told you?
I'm so the frustrated.

I don't wish to let you see I cry,
Even if I'm crying in public you never see,
As for my tears were held strongly in my heart.

I'm done..
Cooled.

...::* 3 Questions *::...

Today I went to UCSI for registration but I have not registered yet.
After introducing to Accounting courses by Ellen Tan,
She keep advice and keep telling not to rush.
"Choosing a course is where you buy a ticket"
"You have to be responsible for your selection"

After all,
My sis told her that I don't really know what I want.
And asked whether there is test to know what I actually want.
She told us that those test are useless even she, herself took it before.

Instead, she came up with three questions.

"What are you good in?"
"What do you like?"
"What kind of environment would you like to work in?"

The only I can answered was BIOLOGY.. lol..

The days where I struggle for Bio,
Feeling sorry to achieve "Donkey" for sir.

Memories.....

Mr. Ananda~
At last, I scored,
I scored an A- for Bio.
Even it wasn't an A+,
I've tried my very best for it.
From a Donkey evolved to an Apple.
Hope to make you proud, sir.
Thanks for what you had taught.
Thanks for the funny and silly comments.
Thanks for your work hard.
You have been a great teacher.

Toh Chun Fei~
Hot Toh.. (hotdog) lol..
When will be our dates to Neway~~~
Even is A- for your add math, is still A.
A's have been achieved by four of your pretties.
Surely you'll be proud of it.^^
Thanks for your teasing.
Thanks for your transportation with plenty of "FURS".


These might be the teachers that are great in SSM in the year 2009?
Although they cannot see what I wrote and what I appreciate from them,
Doesn't matter I just wants to thank to them.
Thank you sir!!!


OUT OF TOPIC!!!
Whatever~
There are no choices and no way to go.
I do jealous people weaker than me getting to science field.
I do want to go for science field but I don't want.
I can't do it. (gosh~ The counselor just told not to underestimate myself ><)
Hope this selection and decision will not lead me to a wrong way.
Going to register again on coming Sunday.

...::* Life *::...

Very soon I'll have to expose myself to the world.
Getting into camp might get me to few percents of mature stage.

After getting result, I do feel satisfy?
Day and night mom asking what course I'll choose.
And Day and night I think about it.

No one be able to help.
No one able to choose one's direction.

Getting into science field makes me grow more white hair.
Getting to be a stewardess will cause me to have centimeters of makeup.
Additional centimeters to be a model.
Being a designer, I don't have the creativity.


I do wants to be dentist but I'm not capable.

I just do not know what am I writing.
Getting into camp causes me to get more noob in english language.
My english get rotten too.

Questions:
How do I improve my english? lol..

...::* I had return *::...

I'm back from camp.
I had became the pirate of the Tangkas Kendiri camp.
PLKN make me lost my beauty. lol..




Leaving camp is more likely to be like getting out of hell.^^
Pictures more to be uploaded in facebook nia~

Latest pictures have to wait from friends too.-Learning part of wirajaya-

Currently I'm thinking of the courses to be taken in future.
I have not plan what to take.
I want to get into science field but I afraid that I can't follow the lessons.
I'm just an average student.
What should I be in future?
Afraid that wasting time and money too.. @@

WHAT TO DO?

...::* Happy CNY & Valentine's Day *::...

Time flashed fast and I'm going to leave tomorrow for another month.
Yesterday went to "Bai Nian".
It was a surprise for dar dar too..
I lied to him that I will not have the chance to see him this CNY.
I do not know how he feel when he saw me.
I love you dar~~~
haha...

I can't feel the old me.
No feeling jor? Cold blooded. jkjk..
I had given dar a Valentine's gift.
Want to know what is it?
Ask him..^^ haha..
Is not an expensive item but mom forgets to return my money.
Is okay because I spent more money in camp.


This pictures after back from camp.

-Pas cuti and Blood donation form-

- drawn by wira Syafiq-

- Do not mistaken-

-Books from CB & Integration classes-

-Public phone card that I had used.-

-All about bank (BSN)-

-1st day de pocket money-

-My elbow de scar-

-The bruises I get from camp-

-Difference in my tone colour-

Everyone thought I enjoyed a lot in camp.
The tension and pressure in it never seem to appear from me.
I hide and cry.
I hide and express my feeling.
I keep them to myself.

Even my dorm's teacher.

Suka tak tinggal sini?
Tak suka langsung, cikgu.
Tak suka? You nampak syok kat sini saja.
Tak ade, cikgu
Macam gembira sahaja?

I do not like the life in camp.
I miss you so much dar~~~

Dar, I'm here to wish you Happy Birthday in advance.
Unable to celebrate your birthday with you this year.
Sorry for once and sorry for being not caring since my return.
Sorry baby~ ^^
Lub you~
MuaxX~

-16/2/10-

...::* HOME *::...

I had left for a month.
Once I reach KL is like...
Wow? KL change a lot?
Leaving for a month is more likely to be like a year.

Hmmm...
Currently I still have not much time to blog too.
How is NS life?
To me is torturing life.

What I had done?
Forget jor..
The latest activity I had done was "Kembala Halangan"
I don't know Gembala or Kembala.
Contain 9 elements and we are allow to do 8 only.
-lompat pagar
-jambatan goyang
-tembok 6 kaki
-tarzan swing
-crawl on sand
-crawl through the hole
2 more duno how to explain.
- tembok 12 kaki? (we cnt ply this)

Lol.. Now I know that I takut tinggi!!!

I do not know how to buy shirts.
So, yesterday simply I grab a short pants.

Till now, I'm still facing terrible cough.
When night comes, I'll cough none stop.
The medicine given is useless.
I "lapor sakit" on 11th.
The teachers say if those who get MC that day will not allow to return home.
That day was the first time I lapor sakit.
I asked "ada ubat lain? selepas makan ubat ini batuk saya lebih teruk."
Nurse replied " Ini aje yang ade sahaja."

Have to go now. No time......

...::* End Post *::...

...::* End Post *::...

At last, I get to out with dar to Leisure Mall.
Although is just hours and not comfortable,
At least I still can spend a little time with dar.

I thought of having our sweet time together but nope.
Not true.

I reached and went for gift shops and met up with dar at cinema.
I never thought of buying tickets first so ended up sitting the second row from the screen.
We watched Avatar and is really not as bad as i thought. ^^

What a day~
Dar meet with his Junior school's friend.
They talked and chatted and dinned.
I left at 7 pm.

I miss him. I don't feel like leaving but I have to.
Sorry dar~
I admit I'm very "keras kepala & siew hei".
(my language gets rotted when not having classes)

I'm now waiting for you dar~
Hope your friend were joking?
Don't really wants you to go woo girls with them.. hehe
Jealousy 100% ^^

Here~ I'm fair~
And...
Next I'm dark~

See Yah~

BLOG ENDS HERE. NO UPDATES TILL I RETURN ON CNY.

...::* Cries *::...

LOL..
I cried yesterday night.
LoL.. First day of 2010 I already cried.
Is not a good start for my year in 2010.
Definitely not a good year for me too.
Desperately want him!!! ^^

I know I'm too "SIEW HEI".
SMALL GAS!!! haha..
But is my last day and I have no time to be with him for 3 months.
I cried not because of his wrong.
I cried because of NS is very near.
Is about hours time.
Not days anymore.
and He is not with me.
He left me count down myself and left me for hours.

Sorry for being so SELFISH.
I am that selfish.
Whatsoever, I'll leaving at 9.30.
Hate 2010 too..

...::* Coming Soon *::...

National Service is coming very soon.
Is just around the corner.
Around 4 more days.
And I'm blogging too frequent nowadays?
I just wanna express...

Is a SURE that i'll cry at the bus terminal.
Not because I miss my family.
It may because I miss him very much.
I had not meet him for days and might not have the chance?
The chance might come on February and might not be a chance too.

I really wanna meet him in this few days.
I'm afraid I can't have the chance to go outing.
I rolled my tears off yesterday night.
I smsed dar like mad lover. LOL.. haha..

The moment I think about him,
I miss him and I want him.
Maybe I' weak and need pampered a week before menstruation.
Lol.. I'm serious. I "MERAJUK" a lot a week before menstruation starts.

Lets have some cute things.. haha..

Print Screen-ing

...::* Ugly Ling *::...

First of all thanks to my little friend.
Nah~ you guys aren't little.. Big Friend..^^
Thank you for coming and finishing "THE FOODS".
Hope you all really enjoy the BBQ.
And sorry for not giving time with you all. busy ma..haha..

Sorry to my dar too~
Treating him not as my dar. Sorry~~

Once again thanks to:

Dar, Alex
Zack,
Erica,
Yi Ru,
Tracy,
Han Jon,
Ban Kok,
Wen Wu,
Hui Xsin,
Kar Chun,
Yung Cieh,
Kok Leong,
Mei Theng,
and
Wai Hoong

Thank You dar for starting the fire.
And..
I hate you HanJon for cleaning up the mess..haha..
I hate you but I still thank you a lot..haha..

Thank you~ Do miss me in the coming months~
Wahahahahaha...
Take Care yah~


Hmmm...
At the moment,
I'm Ugly Ling. Why so?

Look this and you'll know it.. Haha..

-No Jokes. Is serious bruises.-- Very the Ang gi ly punya Ling -

I fell from stairs.. lol..
JOKING~!!!

These are my Christmas present by Dar and Mei Theng.
Thank You~




I know is very late to wish you happy birthday.
Is okay right?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAR CHUN~

Attended to his birthday BBQ too.
Thank you~ haha..

...::* Approved to go NS *::...

Woke up early 8 am and went for Hospital Hulu Langat without breakfast.
Waited for few minutes and asked to return at 2pm.
So I went home for breakfast and chooses clothes for NS.
Taught of having nap but I cannot fall asleep!!!
So I help my little doggie to bath.

Shouted for half and hour.
My dog just don't listen to me.
Standing under sun with shouting is very bad..haha..

After giving him a bath, I get changed to go for body check up

- !!!Sad to have 167 only surely no modeling .I have pink skin -

-BMI not enough-

Is already 2pm but they aren't starting to work.
Many of them came for NS check up but none of them same as my camp.
What a pity to the doctors.
They have to share room!!!
I get into a room and I was like @@. Who is doctor?
Both of them are doctors.

At last I know my blood group.. haha

- Is free and given by doctor -

-Nice colour? Have to bring for NS de -

Wasted an hour ++ in there.
Me and mom went to Econsave to get some stuff for BBQ.
I wants most of the biscuits to bring for NS.
Is too much and will me expensive.
What a luck.
I gets to find a printing shop in it..
I passed over 3 time and I try for it.
I took my pendrive and cert paper down from car.
The girl told me that they are not doing for this type paper.
And the guy say let him see and he might try.
Fail or success I have to pay too..
And I only have 2 paper and one of it is plain and another is printed with logo only.
My printer out of black ink.
They kept explain to me about the percentage of failure to print.
Without thinking I said "Nevermind, have a try".
Yes!!!!!! haha.. trust senses. Worth it, to try.
No try, no results.^^
While walking towards my car, I jumped with joy... hehe

- ?Nice cert? Where to find seal now -

...::* Preparing for NS *::...

Is likely to be less than 15 days to leave.
My time is occupied..
During the coming days i'll have to:

* goes for body check for NS
* prepare my clothes for NS
* shop for dry foods for NS
* look for bottles for NS also
* grab CNY clothes (if possible)
* decide courses to take after NS
* shop for BBQ things & food
* go KarChun's party
* go for my ex tuition teacher's BBQ
* Have my house BBQ.^^
* search for Dar's birthday present (if possible)
* plan a day to go walk walk with dar ( if possible too)

What else???
Hmm...

I have a good news too.
I'm going for NS for less than 2 and the half year..
Returning on the 14 March!!!
Yes baby~~!!!
I can celebrate my birthday with dar??? T-heeeee...

Today mom and sis goes for pos office to get my letter to NS.
While I went for the edu fair at MidValley.
Still in the decision of Hotel Management or Design.
Any idea on which should I choose or suitable for me?

- So thick -
- This is why so thick -

- I'm gonna play M16? I don't even know how it looks like..haha-

-A book of panduan (fully B.Melayu very sleepy) -

I had prepared for NS.
By the way of caring for skin.. ^^
Mom brought a bottle of moisturising cream.
I brought 2 bottles of SunBlock with 3 more additional sunblock by dad.
With a bottle of cleanser and a bottle of blackhead remover.
A useful medi cream that cure rashes and itchy.

- sunblock SPF 130 and SPF 30 (too serious?)-

- moisturising cream-

- cleanser -- Usefull cream cure itchy and rashes-
- Things I prepared -

...::* BlogSkins *::...

There isn't any blog skin that suits me.
Instead, I don't know what I want too.^^
This skin I had bored after editing and previewing for 4 days.
Feel like changing but doesn't matter.
My blog will die for another 3 months in 20 days time.

I'll come back with better me?
I guess?
National Service that had been awaiting for me will soon be arriving.
My camp will be Kelantan, Selangor and Perak people.


Wish to hold my breathe and not to roll a drop of tear during my leaving.
LOL.. I know I like to cry.
Time is limited for me at this little moment until the 1st of January.
I have to done all my things between this 20 days.
As if I'm dying..^^


I'm coming to serve you, Malaysia!!!
LOL..

...::* 3 days trip *::...

Lazy type. ^^
haha..
I went to Cameron and overnight in Ipoh.
Continue my journey to Penang the next day.
Before leaving Ipoh , we went to meet an uncle.
We played for 2 hours while waiting for my dad talking with the uncle.
Went for a wedding dinner nearby Penang but before the Penang bridge.
The next day, we left Penang to return home.
While returning home, we went to the PLKN kem.
That I'll be going soon on the 2nd.
Is very far inside. Hours from KL.
I miss my dar when I saw it.
I miss him~~~ wuwuwu.. lol..
haha..
Friends, please take notice of my dar.
Never let a girl to have the chance to tackle him..
lol.. joking^^ haha..
I trust him.

Cameron Highland

-Waterfall-

-Tea plantation--Fly-trap--Cotton cndy-

-TeaBreak-

Ipoh

-Not ducky is goosey-

-Cute^^-

-Dad and his partner playing sand. lol..jkjk-

Penang

-Useless building-

-Old church-

-Newly renovated-

-Inside-

-Decorated at entrance.-