...::* Happy Belated Birthday *::...

Happy Belated Birthday To my Dar.
This the only gift I manage to make and give to him.
I rushed to make it for Dar on my birthday.
I had make the shape few days before my birthday.
I taught it won't be success so I did not plan to continue.
But ended up with finishing it on my birthday.
I had done it and given to dar but is not dried yet till now.

Ta Da~


Chocolate cake.
Ugly cake right?
haha...

...::* Outings *::...

I had changed or what?
Whenever we went out with presents of my dar,
We will definitely quarrel.
What's the point of quarrel?
Ended up with "beh song" to each other.
Is our problem but why should we make it and show it to the world?

Is so much pain that you hurt my hands.
Rather to be have scars by my baby girl.
The strength that guys and girls are different.
Although my strength might increased from the camp but is still me.
After back from camp,
I'm not behaving like "the previous me".
But you have to give me time to return back to usual me.

Sorry friend, Theng.
I had troubled you too.
No next time ba^^.
Thanks friend. lol..

Another hour is coming,
Enjoy life should be the first thing.

...::* Manja *::...

Hohoho~
Seems to be more "manja" now.
What changes I had made after camp?
I change to be more manja with mom. lol..

Before getting to camp,
I throw my tempered to my parents without caring what they feel.
During camp's life,
I felt guilty and bad.
My parents came visit me every weekend.
They woke up so early for me.
Daddy spend 6 hours of driving.
Mammy cooks early in the morning.
They are really 'WEI DA'.
lol..

I do ask them not to come for few weekend.
They still have all kind of reason for visiting me.
Is so much GUILT!!!

In my dorm, I'm well-known with "anak manja".
Most of my dorm mates taught I'm youngest or the only daughter.
After knowing I'm the second daughter,
They asked why I so manja? lol..
I don't know why.. haha..

For now,
I'm trying not to throw my temper to them.
I should be grateful.
Thanks God. lol..


As for my dar,
I had shared the love I had given him with my family.
Hope dar will understand me ba..
Sorry dar~
I have not been good to you since I had return from camp.
I really wants to treat you like previous but I don't know why I can't.
Maybe I've grow up? A matured thinking I have?
No idea..
Once again sorry dar,
And also my family...

...::* Still frustrating *::...

Any how college life will start on May.
Currently, I'm classifying myself as useless people.
Wasting time at home eat, sleep and play.
Is so lifeless. I want to do something useful.

Once registration had not been made,

I still have the decision.

I don't know what career I'll go after foundation in science.
I don't know I can handle my studies or not.
I don't know whether I'll give up in middle of studies.
I don't want to waste time and money if I failed in halfway.
I don't want my parent's money to be waste.
I don't wish my younger sis and bro face financial problem to continue study.
So I chosen foundation of arts.

Kok Leong!!! You influenced me to think "SO THE MUCH THINGS".
Hohoho.. No choice.. The "KL".
Lucky I have less lines in my palm.
I think when problem really comes.


Thanks Ca to letting me know more information.
I seems to be not care about the course that chosen.
After conversation with you, I did do my research.
I know I shouldn't think the way I am but I really can't make myself to be selfish.

I get to know what accounting, auditor, financing and marketing is.
Thanks to Eejay to share your experience too.
I know there are more career classified into art.
Mainly these four are what I know.
Before Sunday comes, I'll be searching and reading bout all this.


There is no one to help me to choose my course.
I know about it but all I want is advice and talks.
Dar seems to not care bout my feelings.
I'm in frustrating condition and I don't need supports.
All I need was advice.
I know you'll sees this I don't care.
I'm here to express my feelings.
You have not been caring for your own studies.
But I have to.. Time will not wait us.
I'm bored with searching information about culinary as you are not interested.
You just don't help me. You did not advice me...
I need you to share my feelings.
As I don't know why I don't share and tell my problems to others.
I don't tell doesn't mean I have no problems.
I tell doesn't mean I have tell you all my problems.
You questioned why I have nothing to talk.
Can you help after I told you?
I'm so the frustrated.

I don't wish to let you see I cry,
Even if I'm crying in public you never see,
As for my tears were held strongly in my heart.

I'm done..
Cooled.

...::* 3 Questions *::...

Today I went to UCSI for registration but I have not registered yet.
After introducing to Accounting courses by Ellen Tan,
She keep advice and keep telling not to rush.
"Choosing a course is where you buy a ticket"
"You have to be responsible for your selection"

After all,
My sis told her that I don't really know what I want.
And asked whether there is test to know what I actually want.
She told us that those test are useless even she, herself took it before.

Instead, she came up with three questions.

"What are you good in?"
"What do you like?"
"What kind of environment would you like to work in?"

The only I can answered was BIOLOGY.. lol..

The days where I struggle for Bio,
Feeling sorry to achieve "Donkey" for sir.

Memories.....

Mr. Ananda~
At last, I scored,
I scored an A- for Bio.
Even it wasn't an A+,
I've tried my very best for it.
From a Donkey evolved to an Apple.
Hope to make you proud, sir.
Thanks for what you had taught.
Thanks for the funny and silly comments.
Thanks for your work hard.
You have been a great teacher.

Toh Chun Fei~
Hot Toh.. (hotdog) lol..
When will be our dates to Neway~~~
Even is A- for your add math, is still A.
A's have been achieved by four of your pretties.
Surely you'll be proud of it.^^
Thanks for your teasing.
Thanks for your transportation with plenty of "FURS".


These might be the teachers that are great in SSM in the year 2009?
Although they cannot see what I wrote and what I appreciate from them,
Doesn't matter I just wants to thank to them.
Thank you sir!!!


OUT OF TOPIC!!!
Whatever~
There are no choices and no way to go.
I do jealous people weaker than me getting to science field.
I do want to go for science field but I don't want.
I can't do it. (gosh~ The counselor just told not to underestimate myself ><)
Hope this selection and decision will not lead me to a wrong way.
Going to register again on coming Sunday.

...::* Life *::...

Very soon I'll have to expose myself to the world.
Getting into camp might get me to few percents of mature stage.

After getting result, I do feel satisfy?
Day and night mom asking what course I'll choose.
And Day and night I think about it.

No one be able to help.
No one able to choose one's direction.

Getting into science field makes me grow more white hair.
Getting to be a stewardess will cause me to have centimeters of makeup.
Additional centimeters to be a model.
Being a designer, I don't have the creativity.


I do wants to be dentist but I'm not capable.

I just do not know what am I writing.
Getting into camp causes me to get more noob in english language.
My english get rotten too.

Questions:
How do I improve my english? lol..

...::* I had return *::...

I'm back from camp.
I had became the pirate of the Tangkas Kendiri camp.
PLKN make me lost my beauty. lol..




Leaving camp is more likely to be like getting out of hell.^^
Pictures more to be uploaded in facebook nia~

Latest pictures have to wait from friends too.-Learning part of wirajaya-

Currently I'm thinking of the courses to be taken in future.
I have not plan what to take.
I want to get into science field but I afraid that I can't follow the lessons.
I'm just an average student.
What should I be in future?
Afraid that wasting time and money too.. @@

WHAT TO DO?