...::* Miss Him *::...

Huhuhu~~~
I rolled my tears in sudden.
His figure visited me by last night.
Is so sore..

I miss him so desperately.
I need a hug.
A warm hug.
I need to express.
I miss you...

Years you had left me.
To be 6 years.
Yet I can't forget about you.
Your last emotion, action, and post.
Freshly in my mind.
Is so sore. Very sore..

Dear little one, Blackie.
I love you forever.
I know I shouldn't drop my tears anymore.
You won't like me to be like this.
I'm sorry. I can't.
You are my beloved one and I have no idea of controlling myself to do this.
I love you, my dear. I love you.

...::* Movies *::...

Too much loitering.
I had watched 4 movies since 16th August. LOL..
Usually I don't really go for movies.
Is bored.
I had watched:
The Last Airbenders on 16 in LM.
Descent 2 on 20 in Genting.
Love in Disguise on 24 in LM.
Phua Chu Kang today in LM.

RM 24.. wow.. haha..
Spending too much nowadays.
Money no place waste? lol..

I miss you!!! lol..
How can I be missing you? lol..
Ka Ling missing someone? OMG..
Unbelievable.. Lessbian betul..haha..
I miss college life.
I miss it maximum.

Hohoho..
Results were out.
Not all but only 2 subjects.
Scoring 72 for Malaysian Studies and 68 for Film & Arts Appreciation.
I got two BF right now.
Is not the great or the best one.
Doesn't matter is enough ba?

Next destination.
Ice skating? Nono..
Dim sum first then get a day to skate?
Hey~ My next destination to Singapore!!!
Singapore-->Johor--> Melaka--> KL
Do miss me. lol.. JOKING. talalalalala.. haha..
Should miss me..
What if the accidents happen right? wahahahaha..
Siao ar...

Woooooot...
My LG KF310 affected by viruses..
o.0? Viruses. No worries. No harm. haha..

Love green bean.. Yummy. Yummy. haha..
Remind me about camp's green bean soup.
Is salty but not sweet.
Actually is nice too.
Should find a day to have Malay's green bean soup.
Miss it.

...::* Something Not Right *::...

I'm not feeling easy as usual.
I'm not in the mood.
Something had gone wrong tonight.
It should be today.
I have no idea of finding the root of the problem.

Why should I feel so?
I don't know. I have no answer for what it is.
I can't sleep well since yesterday.
I went to bed at 3 am and falls asleep after 5.30 am.

What's wrong with me?
My heart wasn't in peace.
It has been worried and messed up since yesterday.
What's wrong? What's wrong with me? What happened?

I have no ways of expressing.
I'm in worries and afraid of something.
Something would happen.
I can't predict what it would be.
Why? What is it actually?
Why should the feel hunt me in sudden and left for hours.
I'm not smiling from my true heart since this morning.

I had a afternoon-mare.
Trying to have a nap at 4 pm and the mare awakes me at 4.15pm.
Someone pulled my cheeks over and kissed me in sudden.
Is very scary. Someone might attack me.
I'm afraid of something.

I used to sleep in my bed that fulled of my stuff.
Usually I have got 2 dogs, 2pillows and 2 blankets.
I feel comfortable surrounded by all this things.
I like to be packed by stuff. I feel safe.
But yesterday I do not sleep well like the previous day.
I've got extra bear now and my bed should be more packed.
But.. it seems to be my bed gone bigger?
I sat and look for a momment.
My bed gone wider? Why I can't feel the safety?
I can't feel the secure. Why? Why? Why?
What had happen? What scares me away?
WHAT IS IT? can you please come out fast?
PLEASE~ I BEG YOU..
PLEASE...

I don't feel good.
I wants to cry.
I can't..
I'm in pressures?
What's this?
Why it happens in sudden?
Why?


NOT IN MOOD..

...:* Back *::...

Genting trip successed.^^
Syoik~

An enjoyable trip with you guys.
June, Eric, Ivy How, Ken Nie, San Ing & Aaron Chin.



Seriously, that day was my first in many things.
First time:
Enjoyed all outdoor theme park.
Gets crazy in lobby with you guys for hours.
Watch scary movies in middle night at 1.30 am.
Sleeps with guy.


Before going, I was afraid of the space shot.
End up, I was up there enjoying hoping to be higher.
Sadly weather wasn't that good.
Failed to enjoy all the games.

We found out something nice, cheapest and fun to played.
Is just 40 cents per time and per person.
Here comes the BMI machine. lol..
Currently I'm having 165.5 cm with 45.5 kg and 16.5 BMI.
Round it off and will get 17. Balanced. haha..

They went back for jackets.
While me and Ken goes along with Mr. Bean. lol..
Something stupid had happened.
Too brave. Too crazy. Too stubborn. OMG..

We joined up and loiter around in lobby.
Up, Down, Left, Right,
Jump, Run, Climb, Crawl. lol..
Waiting time to come for The Descent.
Is fun to watch human shock. :P
I admit I was shocked once in the ending part.
NOT THE WHOLE SCENE!!! :P
Talks.. Pai seh la.. lol..

Movie ended!!! Head to hotel.
I'm hungry.. Is singing.
My room, 2 guys & 2 girls.
Girls protected by guys?
We sleep in the center and the guys by the side.
I get a knock. nono.. 2 knock. Left knock and right knock.
I can't sleep. Ended up observing people sleeping.

Day 2 wasn't muchie.
We just went for our bowling and snookering.
I brought a box of cigratte. Is just RM 5.
Cheap you know? duty free.. haha..

Lazy to upload images.
Images into facebook.. haha..

...::* Enjoy *::...

I'm going to enjoy my life.
Outdoor a lot nowadays.
Task 1- clear my cupboard. (done)
Task 2- clear my study area (halfway)
Task 3- Get the three babies bath (not done at all)

I'm heading to genting in 2 days time.
Excited!!!
Sudden excited with this and also my results..><
I don't know why but I'm very excited to know my result.


Result not posted yet.
It will be up very soon.
Wooooooo~~
Nervous yet wants to know..
Can upload faster?
Please~ Please~ Please~

Seems to ask time to fly faster. haha..
Badminton tomorrow. lol..
Few months no exercise since return from camp.
My tummy is back.
Should go for camp to get tummy lost.. haha..

...::* Yeeha *::...

Current mood: Average.
Current Song : Vanilla Twilight-Owl City.

Semester break started at 11.20 am on 16.08.10, Monday.
We headed to Leisure Mall for lunch and enjoyment.
Our babies have their gaming in arcade.
The mommy waited. >< We are starving la.. haha..

We enjoyed our lunch in Boston.
Seated in front of cinema. ><
Noob la.. 2.40 pm ticket.
Have to wait another hour.

We spreaded a part.
They have their guys talk, we have our walk walk..^^
I had never stand on that bridge and enjoy the view.
Looks like weirdo but doesn't matter.
You can enjoy the car under you,
the clouds come and go above you,
the eye sights on you.

Another to more days I will head to Genting.
Syok~ I'm going to play all the elements. ><
I might have my first walk with you, my dear. lol..
Morning walk. lolx.. So sweet~~ ><

...::* Bored *::...

VERY BORING!!!
SOPO is here!!!

Current songs by LeeHom

...::* AnnouncemenT *::...

At last I have got the time.
Not in a rush to tell whatever I wants to says.

Currently I am single yet unavailable.
Reasons are excuses.
I know is unacceptable reason so just let this be the reason.
I have no feeling on him. I don't love him.

We broke on Tuesday, 10th August 2010, 1200 hours, Old town.
753 days or 2 years & 25 days.
All the time we had come to be memories.
Sorry for taking this step before you did.

In future I might regret on what I had done on that day.
Doesn't matter. Life still have to move on.
Move on. Never look back.
Cheer up and is not worth to be sad because of me.
I am nothing more than a BITCH.
I'm not your Mrs. Right.
Move on.


***HOMESICK***
I have been spending too much of time outside.
Loitering around Cheras area.
My "SAN GA" only left RM 50. lol..
Semester break start next Tuesday.
So, I will not be getting money. ><
Have to stop my spenses. Lol..
Spending too much make me poor.

I'm eating.
I'm eating a lot of things.
Spenses to food increases.
My sister doesn't eat but I eat damn expensive stuff.><
Financial problem starting soon. ><

Everyday spending 10 to 11 hours outside.
I really do miss home. lol..
I'm mommy's girl. :)

Have not been realising the love in my surrounding.
I have to expose to the world.
Seeking for true love from human all over the world.
Feel the love from everything.
Living and non-living things.
Time to feel it, love it and appreciate it.

Trying to change myself.
Change to know more about myself and understand people.
I will never be loved if I do not love myself.
Love is short-term from everyone.
You will lost the love immediately.

Like and Love are different.
You will discover the difference.
I had come across all the "IF" and thinks about it.
No matter what. Let it be. Follow the flow.
"Shawn say follow the beat" lol..

Stay strong.

...::* Bless You *::...

Bless you.
I will here to bless you, Terence Ling Hong Wei. lol..


Sorry, I should had called you up.
Feeling so so so the bad. ><
We are so so so sorry for you. ><
The office will definitely give you a chance. ><


My phone attacked by viruses.
Whole memory card format but not sure whether is okay?

Exam started at 10 am yet we are still playing.
I am still enjoying my talks.
9.30 am. Oh no!!!!! I have not finish my lecture notes!!!
Teach me~~~ lol..last call but I have no idea on it.><
I have no interest into Economics.
I get into the hall, I have no feeling.
I sat and do. Do I know how to do?
I really do not know how should I answer you.
Should I know or not?
I trying to use add maths way.
In the end, I recall the glance I gave to my notes.
Wooot~ I re-do..
Shoot, shoot, & shoot.
Bing, Bing, & Bang.

Count, count and count.
Not enough 40/100%
35% only.. need 4 more..
If I able to tackle all 10% in Q1,
I'll be more confident..><
What is this!!!
I'm learning economics?
Nothing in my brain now.><

We enjoyed ourselves in FunOK Cafe.
Coming days we will be there to lepak for our another 6 months time.
Take yourself as home. lol..
This the time to enjoy.
Will never feel it again in coming 10 years.
><

Tired.. go sleep.. >< nite..

...::* Unlucky *::...

When unlucky come and attack, can't escape. ><
I have been so the unlucky.

I might FAIL my OFFICE APPLICATION.
All the *star star* word in my heart..
WTC!!! I realised it just after my maths subject.
The shading sheets normally should be straight down.
1.
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.

Today, the shading sheet was left and right, left and right.
1. 2.
3. 4.
5. 6.

After everything, getting into lift with Ken. >Our OA paper also left & right.
Malaysian study straight. >< >< ><
"shit" came out from my mouth.
*star star* word in my heart. >< ><
Not happy!!!

Our babies sad for maths.
I sad for Office. ><
And JOKES FOR EVERYONE.
The lecturer will be no 1. correct. 2.x 3.x 4.x ----50.x
49/50 wrong!!!!!
OMG la!!!
Subjective already fly 24/50 la.. still gt more to cut.><

WHAT IS HAPPENING!!!!!!!
VERY GIK SIM!!! T______T
Wants to cry la..
Jokes for others also. ><
WUWUWUWUWUWUWUWUWU~!!!!
Freaking SAD jor.. ><

I ate puppy love today.
Icy~~~
Ice+ Red bean + Zhan jue+ choco= puppy love
Try others next time.
I want desserts!!!!!!!!

...::* Hard Life *::...

Hard life starting.
KA LING is growing.
No fears. No tears.

I had been wasting a lot of things.
I had missed a lot of things.

Before anything else,
SORRY~ SORRY~ and SORRY~
I had not cared for you since getting into camp.
Ended up with dryness.
Taught of saving you, as I had failed.
You left me as I had abandon you first.
No use crying over the spilt milk.
All I have to say is.. Sorry.
I had make you lost your life in this world.
Sorry to God, who had created a life for it.
Yet, I had make it lost its life. ><


I have to work damn hard from tonite till Thursday's morning.
Algebra and Econs.
Where I have no confident in Econs at all.
I have no idea on what it says.
I need help in ASAP.. but I don't think so I will have it in last minutes.
Not even a book can assits me.

I'm tired. Tired and tired. ><
All the days and night I had not been having a good night. ><
I'm getting off to bed right now.
Is too early and doesn't sounds like me.
I have to. I have to fight hard for it.
Tonite will be a better night.
Good night.

Better, Bitter, Bad, Sour...
Good night everyone.
Love you guys.

...::* FAILURE NO.1 *::...

JERK!!!
Failed. ><

I should had spending all the 24 hours of Saturday & Sunday on my exam.
What had I done? Wasting my time.
13 files. WTH i had read?
2-3 files only.
What I had spending on?
DISTRACTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SO UNSATISFY!!!!!
I know the result should be some unwanted way.
Because I had not work for it.
I hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DAMN MUCH!!!!!
If.....
When there is if, everything will not had happen.
Faeces!!!!!!!

I loss 24%...
50% MCQ & 50% structures.
I don't think I can score in MCQ too.
Not even 20%... How can I pass this subject???
Pantang SUB-PAPER.
Pantang RETAKE.

I'm very the "ANGRY"?
What's the point?
Padan muka lu la..
Takla belajar.. Spending stupid time.
I don't know why my anger come in sudden.

...::* >< *::...

not in peace.
Fishy is not peaceful.
Fishy is not happy.
Fishy very the "rice"


Fishy~~~~~~
In another two and the half hour I will have to take my exam.
I have no mood for it.
I have no idea of it.
I don't want to face it.

Wants to escape.
ESCAPE!!!!!!!!!!!!><
Life~~~
How can I hold on?
I don't feel like holding on.
I'll burst up again.

My brain got distracted.><
uneasy..
Uneasy feelings had come to me again.

Should I do it?
Is this the right choice?
Best of the best choice?
LOST...........
I can't concentrate.
I can't.

...::* Fire *::...

The heat in me is very high.
I can feel it.
I have 11 more files to read.
Powerpoint slides.
Each with at least 50 and above.

I had just finish with 3 files.
What is this?
I have no more feelings.
I'm tired. I'm numb.

I do not wants to avoid.
I know what I want.
I had decided what I want.
Am I? Yes I am...><
I wants to be selfish.


Towards the conclusion.
I'm the worst GF ever in the whole world.
I'm DAMN BITCH.
Flirting around with no limitation.
Spending my times with guys.
Hanging around in useless places.
Doing things that has no benefits.
I'm a girl with un-natural faces in everyones eyes.
No one knows who am I.
I am nobody. I want to be myself.
The real me. Where to find the real me?
I'm such a bitch. Damn BITCH.



Not doing my part to flirt with him.
Not spending my time with him.
Not caring him for days.
Ignoring him.

Sleep, sleep, sleep.
Study, study, study.
Play, play, play.
Eat, eat, eat.
What else I know?

Waste of time doing this.
I have to anti social?
Anti social.
Be selfish.


SELFISH. BE ALONE.
@#$% EVERYONE IN MY LIFE.
NEVER TREAT ANYONE GOOD.
STOP THE CARES.
STOP HELPING.
STOP PLAYING.
STOP JOKING.
STOP!!!!!!!!

STOP MY LIFE.......
2012.. will you really exists?
Will you? Can you please get my life.
I'm willing to give up my life to help.

Almighty Father,
I have been talking to you lately.
I'm a useless girl.
I know you will help me throughout my life.
You exists in me since I were born.
You supported me throughout my life.
You loved me as no ones do before.
Thank GOD. You are the best.
You guided me all my ways.
Thank you...

...::* Pack *::...

Coming week will be fully packed.
Exams on Monday, Wednesday and Thursday.
Opportunity Cost.. lol..
If I wants to pass my Economics,
I have to give up scoring high score for Maths. ><><><><


My phone!!! Yes.. I had attacked by viruses.
I reset my phone and memory card went into hospital..
BI-BO-BI-BO-BIU-BIU-BIU-BIU.. lol..
Hope everything goes well.
Sadly, went I reset my phone,
I forget to transfer all headset numbers into sim card.
Hmmmmm.. some of you were gone!!!~~ No~~~
No worries.. Someday I will get you back. ^^


Okay, after 12.30 pm of coming Thursday,
I'll relax. Let's shopping~~~
Shop into Econsave. Funny? lol..
Mothers of six kids.. lol..
12 days time..
Mood will be back to enjoy my best of the best life.


Is it really cheap?
I don't know why sudden question come. @@
2 days 1 night,
Outdoor theme park,
First world hotel
Transport fees go & bck
(some junks)
All cost RM50


Mau siam jor.. lazy jor.. 1 more file den oi oi gao.. :)

...::* Flirty *::...

Current weather : Raining very very very soon.
Current mood : Lower than normal.
Current area : Block A, UCSI.
Current need : Let me be alone.



Trying to absorb Economics for coming Thursday.
Nothing come into my mind.
In and out. Ending not reached.


I had been flirty in these days.
Non-stop flirting around.
IS SO THE BITCHY.
What's the point being bitchy?
No idea.
I'm in tense. I want to stop everything and enjoy life.
This will not be happen as earth turns and human grow.
Can the earth turn faster in future?
I wants to see my future.
What I am into?

When there is faith,
We will meet again.
When we are ment to meet,
We never afraid to be apart.

I have no worries about my coursework marks.
I'm just worried for my exams.
I have to score 20 out of 40 and I'm safe.
This is tough yet I have to do it.
No matter how and what,
I still have to take the challege.
Nothing easy in life. Everythings getting tough.
Life is not great as everyone taught.

What the CRAP I'm having now?
I am now with all the rubbish in my brain.
I want to study!!!!!!!!!!
STUBBORN!!!!!!
Born to be stubborn.
I know the outcome yet I still do it.
Why? Why should I be so the stubborn!!!

Afraid? Still doing it. Why?
STUBBORN.
Stop it. Economics please.
I'm stress. Please do not stress me and let the flow come.


Next challenge:
Genting's Solero in middle August.
Ghost Festival is here!!!
What will be the case that coming out from newspaper?

Siam dulu.. Econs..
><

...::* my FIRST & LAST *::...

I did it.
I had done part of my job.
Hope to be what I want.
More than that, sure will be allowed.

MALAYSIAN STUDY.
My first and last in college.
I will never want it again.
Never ever have it again.


I stressed myself for the whole night.
What I expected and suspected had come.
I'm on period!!! I'm SUPERD SCARE & NERVOUS yesterday night.
Failed to fall asleep and I keep on facebook-ing with my phone.
I'm so stress!!! This morning period came visits me.
I did not really study but glance through.
Lucky everything was fine.
THANKS TO Ms. NOORAIME.
She's great. Questions & answers totally given.

This the best exam that I ever taken.
You will have 99.9% confident to answer it.
You don't even have to think twice or even finish reading everything.
Is so fun as if you are erasing and redoing the questions in exercise book.

I'm good in walking.^^
I walked from Block A to Block C and climbed up to 5th floor.
Cool!!! Tonite I might feel the cramp. ><>

...::* Challenges *::...

Blogging daily had shown how stressfull I am?
Worst thing I had done in college.
I bursted out in the public.
What is this?
What is this happening in college?
Is so the "TOH SHUI GA".
I held it so hardly.
Can't stop myself thinking.
I never wants to talk about it.
I doesn't like to voice it out.
As I would be fine with typing.

I had been torturing his heart so much.
Instead of setting free, I'm avoiding.
WHAT A BITCH?
I HAVE NO GUTS TO FACE THE TRUTH.
NO GUTS TO FACE HIM.
NO GUTS TO FACE THE PROBLEMS.

I know I am having a flowery heart.
As EVERYONE thinks so. Right? :)
As Mr. Toh Toh say so too. ^^
I had use to be a BITCH.


I numb myself. I numb myself to stop my thinking.
Even if it is running through.
SORRY IF I HAD HURT ANYONE TODAY.
SORRY IF I HAD BEING RUDE.
SORRY IF I HAD BEING SCARY.
SORRY IF I HAD HURT ANYONE.
SORRY. SORRY. SORRY.

THANKS TO THOSE WHO HAD CARED & WORRIED FOR ME
SAM, WHERE WERE YOU WHEN I NEEDED YOU MOST?
(no la.. joking.. MY DEEPEST SYMPATHY)
IVY, NO WORRIES. I WILL NOT SUICIDE.
(i will hunt you)
KEN, DAILY MUMBLES.
(waste gas :P)
LEONG, what an early chat you gave.
(i will remember you.)
DAM DAM, everyday heart problem.
(Your sweet moment, the smiles of you..I dno sing><)


To everyone:
I will not done any stupid things to my life.
Although I hate minor of it.
COMMIT SUICIDE will never happen to me.
It would happen, with meaningful purpose.
Wasting GOD's creation will be a sin.
No matter what, I will never ever suicide.
NO WORRIES FOR ME.


Currently, I think I like caps and guy's jacket.
Today a jacket was brought.
Noob sales. She cut the tag without price tag.
She left the tag with the price tag.
RM 129.90--!!!
I got 3 answer after discount!!!
I don't know how to fold!!!
NOOB DAO~ =.=

Striking jacket.
Attraction NUMBER 1. SO CUTE!!!
Feel like having one.. LOL...

...::* Here again *::...

YES. Is me. I am here again.
We are on argue again.
How long this will be on?

I really have no mood on my exams.
"NO WORRIES, STAY LUCKY."
Will it work when no effort were done?
The phrase just used to comfort people around me.
It doesn't goes to me.


I told him.
I told him i will be on a hoilday with college friends.
The plan having 80% possibility to success.
We will never meet?
What does that mean?
I know is hurtfull.
I have not been on a holiday with you.
Did you plan it?


Today I plan to meet you up in FunOK cafe or KFC.
Plans go smooth if my sis going at 9 am.
If 9 am, I will done my things by 11 and meet you up.
Have a lunch with you till 2pm comes.
Instead of going college at 9 am,
My sis have class at 11am. ><
This is why I did not let you know my planning.
I'm not lying..
PLEASE!!!
PLEASE DO NOT SAY I LIE TO YOU GUYS WHEN I DID NOT DO SO!!!
I'M FREAKING DISLIKE IT. ><

Anyhow, THANKS A LOT TO TAN YI RU.
Although is warm.
Eat it when still hot^^
This always what human said..
THANK YOU.

...::* No.. *::...

-Happy birthday, my DEER-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IVY HOW!!!!!
I know you will LOVE ME DAMN MUCH!!!
Your dream come true.. haha..
As if I'm the one who stalk.. ><

Thursday will be the day.

First exam, Malaysian Studies..

I'm still with my loitering mood.

I open up my file and I fall asleep.

The mood just doesn't come to me.

Currently playing with my desktop background.

Nothing special. ><

I want something special when I on it.

How am I doing lately?

I'm still lost in all directions.

Make myself not to think..><

I want to play.

Mom let me join my college friend for vacation during this sem break.

@@ Is it real? Lol.. Usually moms doesn't allow to do so??

Anyhow, hope is on.

The feels will be so much different from going with family.

-Guys in Black-

-Girl in white-
- Foreign + local members-

-Baby Aaron + Ivy (dun kill me)-
-Years of friend, The beast :P-

-Always Three-

-My bitch-