...::* Depression *::...

Sorry my Gal Gal.. muaxx..

Yesterday I was so depressed and I bursted.
I rolled my tears and flooded my room. (lol.. jk^^)

I was trying to log into facebook's game, country story.
Doesn't seems to work..
My mom put her bowl of soup beside laptop.
I was sitting on floor and laptop was charging while I playing.
My fc*king sister, with her blind eyes, tripped over the charger that I connected.
The wire goes along and pulled the soup along.
The whole soup poured on my lap and I just finish my bath.
Freaked out!!!
I have no tempered although she had did that.
But, my parents blamed on me and this cause me not feeling "ALRIGHT".
I wanted to roll my tears on the spot. (I didn't)

I bathed again along with tears... @#$%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm not feeling alright after all.
I can't control my emotion.
I have emotional problem?

I know I shouldn't throw my temper on my little puppy, Gal Gal.
Sorry for kicking you, throwing you, punching you..
I can't stop myself doing it..
I just can't...

I went to bed around 11.00 pm.
I started to burst into tears...
I can't stop my cry for 30 minutes...
Feeling okay during the conversation with my dar.
Later, around 1am we offed and went for bed.
Unable to sleep and I started to burst my tears again.

I get more energetic after cries.
I can't make myself to dream... TT

This morning wasn't in a good condition due to lacking sleeps and tired of crying.
I have to do my EST exam.
After all, I tried to nap in class but fail to fall asleep.
The essay for EST today was about INSOMNIA, a sleeping disorder.
While reading, I wanted to know more about it.
This is because I felt like having it.. lol.. haha..

I'm kinda suspect whether I had psychology problem.. haha..
My mood swings in sudden and I can't control it by myself.
Emotion goes up and down in just seconds.

I found myself crying on bed few weeks a time.
I don't get what I cry for at times.
Maybe pressuring or depressed. NO IDEA~~~ haha..

My tiny bow bow.. lol..
He brings me joy and clam me down most of the time.
The one who I spend most of my sadness.
The one who willing to waste his time and life with me.
He is the one who willing to let me do anything on him for my happy^^
I lub you~~~ lol.. haha

...::* Nothing *::...

Nails turned purple.. (Cold)^^
Having warm from Dar~

Lub dar dar..

Lub Kit Kit^^

Devil look^^

...::* Scar Scar *::...

Number of scars on my body keep increasing!!!
My girl girl's fingernails are long.
Everytime she jumps and scratch.
We commented that she is cloned from dog and cat.
Lol.. She make noises like cat. She "MEOW".
She ate two bottle with a big pack of fish food.
Pity fish have to suffer without food for weeks.
She ate turtle's food too.

Till now,
I have more than scars that not going off.
I don't know it will goes off or not.
It looks ugly.

-Latest scar-

-Longer than mine-

...::* Girl Girl *::...

My little pup had her name.
We named her Girl Girl but I usually call her 'Lui Lui'.
She is superb N-A-U-G-H-T-Y!!!
She is funny & noob too.
Everytime i carry her up,
She pee. (she is crazy)

No idea why she isn't afraid of scolding and hitting.
She will show her butt when you wants to hit her.
She will continue biting when you scold her.

I usually have male dogs and all listen to us.
This female dog is the naughtiest among all.
Here she is...
haha..

-HiHi-






-Haha-
-MuaxxxxX-








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This a side post.
I was clearing my stuff in cupboard and I found this things.

-Do you guys remember this?-

Mr. Zul's signature.
This was taken during my form 2 from exam time table.
I still remember what he said.
The paper throw never mind.
But must tear his signature out and keep.
This is why the paper still kept with me^^ haha..

This key followed me for years since Junior 6.
My job is to take care of a cupboard in 6 Biru. lol..
Madam Leong gave me this key.^^
I still keeping it nicely and well.
I wandering where I keep and bring along everyday to school.
Long term memory lost. haha.
Not much memories I kept.

I'm crazy to keep a stone for years too.
I don't remember when I started keeping it.
I think it was during Junior 4 or 5.
A girl told me to pick a stone from the ground.
And it will bring luck for me. LOL..
Lame huh? haha..

Whatsoever, these three things will continued keeping by me.
In my cupboard.^^
Rent a bank and keep it^^ haha..

...::* Thieves!!! Fire!!! *::...

I went to bed around 12 am.
"DIP DAP DIP DAP.."(mom and dad running downstair)
I was awake by their steps and I went to my brother's room peeked out.
@@. Bunch of people outside gathering.
Noises, Screams, and Calls.
Everyone seems to be alerting each other.

I went down and joined with my parents.
Looking at next door house.
Smoke escaping from roof.
"Fire!! Fire!! Getting bigger!!" My neighbour shouted.
"Why the owner not getting out of their house?" everyone asking.
"Go wake everyone up" my dad command me and my mom.

I grabbed my phone and wakes my sister.
Run down and continue watching what was happening.
After 10 minutes, the owner came out with her daughter.
She screamed
"There is people in my house!!"
"I saw their figure pass by my room!!!"
"CCTV not functioning!!"
"Phones all not working!!"
"The back doors was opened!!"
Her daughter was stunned having her bear.

My parents quickly ask us to grab all our valuable things.
I ran up to my room grabbed my 2 other phones and a wood.
Not a wood that thin like me. haha..
Here come the "HERO", the guard. haha
Without thinking, he walked into the house with torch light.

My next door neighbour called for the police.
She on loudspeaker and the police said:
"Sabar, sabar, kita sedang datang."
Everyone was angry with them and also the firemen.
They can't find our place.

After all,
The police with the firemen checked up everything.
They said that was just fire from the fan.
That makes all her electronic in her house all burnt.
Her house was all black.
All electronics were burnt and gone.

She has mistaken that there were thieves.
Pity. Everything in her house were gone.
Everything took around 40-50 minutes.
The event make everyone awakes and unable to fall asleep again.
Lucky I'm not going school today. haha..
I slept around 3.30 AM after everything.

...::* Mix *::...

SPM trial started.
Chemistry paper 1 i get 24 only.
I have 12 marks.
Very scare!!!
I don't want to have D i want a B (if possible).^^


Wednesday dar made me breakfast along with biscuits.
Nice~ hehe..
On Friday, he made egg with "halia".
Nice o.0~
He can cook very much better than me.
I cook that egg ended up with black shit. lol.. (i'm serious)
My cooking sux^^.



I'm having PMS now.
Symptoms started since this week.
I'm afraid I get major pain during menstruation.
I'll be having Add maths examination that time.
Poor Add maths I guess? haha..

I brought something on Friday.
When K meets L haha..
I broke me fingernail making this.^^

-broken nail.-

@@
Just know went for Pasar malam at Anggerik after dinner.
When going home, our car passing by a narrow road with car parked by side.
Three boys were trying to walk passing our car side.
They didn't notice my dad had open the window. (i guess)
He voiced "NYA MA, FAI DIT GOH LA (faster go la)."
My dad get angry and stops the car and tried to catch the boy.
@@ I was stunned. haha..
Both the boy ran away and another boy was shocked and stayed still.
His eye was like frighten. haha..

Has been a long long time never seen my dad this way.. hehe..
When I was young,
he throws mobile phone on us when we make noise during his calls.

...::* Late Post *::...

Such a tiring Friday and Saturday.
My family and I went to Genting.
Woke up around 10 am and get prepared.
Before going, we dine at Old Town.
Those worker are not responsible and sucks!

We ordered 6 food and only a white coffee.
They come with a white coffee and a dark coffee.
Later, they bring 2 sets of nasi lemak and other 5 foods.
We were given 3 sets of spoons and chopstick.
Dad freaked out and... @#$% the malay waiter who serve us.

That waiter served another table.
The girl asked which of it is Milo.
That waiter scolded the girl.
We were given free coffee. haha..

Reach Genting and checked in.
We, sisters and brother stayed in hotel.
I do some physics exercises while enjoying my Chipsmore.. hehe..
Around 5pm, we went out to meet with mom and dad.

We go for buffet at Coffee Terrace.
Variety of choices. @@
I started with 3 piece of sushi.
A plate of salads,
Candies,
Mashed potato.

And i'm fulled.
This is why my mom always say "rugi" when bring us for buffet.
haha.. Agreed^^**




After dinner, we went to First World's cinema.
4 choices only.
Kungfu Cyborg, UP, Laughing gor, and District 9.
My parents don't understand english.
Laughing gor, my elder sister had watch.
Only choice, Kungfu Cyborg.

-noob-

Kinda nice to me.
Laugh till cry.
The cinema wasn't satisfy.
Small and uncomfortable.

Around 11pm, we back to hotel.
I'm so the cold.
I wore 2 clothes and 2 jackets with blanket.
I can't sleep!!!
The whole night I was waiting for morning.
I took 2-3 hours nap on the chair.
When I woke up,
I was shocked to feel something in my mouth!!!
It was the fillings!!! It came out!!!
I kept it in a tissue for the dentistry to see himself.^^

Out from hotel and straight to Puchong.
Tired** I want to sleep~~
Took our breakfast+lunch at Thai restaurant.
I admire their Thai food a lot.
Seldom to find nice Thai food around cheras.^^

Back home and take all luggage out from car.
And here again, me, my elder sister and mom went out again.
To Suntex for the dentistry.
So sad. TT He wasn't here.
Have to return on Sunday again.

Went home eat and goes for bath.
It was already 5 pm after all my cleaning.
So tired~~
Accidentally slept untill 6.15pm.
My mom woke me up and asked what time I'm going out.
I jumped off my bed and smsed Tracy.
She has been there since 6 pm. @@
Get changed and search for hp and off.
Reach Leisure around 6.40 pm.
Sorry Tracy..^^ hehe..

I'm still confusing..@@ haha..
Waited for Hui Xsin and goes for Yiru's house.
We eat, talk, laughed, and also went for pasar malam.
Later we watch movies.
I don't really have the interest on watching movies.
This is why I seldom watch movies.
No interested on it.^^ haha..

***HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY YI RU***

Back home and get to be at 12 am.
Tired**


Today,
Early in the morning,
8 am!!!!!
Is too early!!!!
Very tired...
Cleaned myself and prepared to Suntex again.
Maybe I would change my ambition to dentistry?
Many customer were there. haha..

I showed the fillings to him.
He quickly take away and throw it away. haha..
Black fillings are better but not nice and cheaper.
Now, he used white fillings and he check my front teeth again.
Feeling uneasy now.
Feels like cracked teeth. haha..

...::* My Holidays *::...

What a holiday.

-Monday-
Back to school for Biology and B.M class.
Went home nap and rest for a day.
I tried for a Biology model test paper.
Objective question I managed to get 25 correct.
Sad case..TT

-Tuesday-
Went for Physics tuition at BanKok's house.
Took lunch together. Pan Min at Connaught.
Reach home nap for hours again.
Pity Mr.Thava. He stayed for 4 hours in school.
No one turned up.
Sorry sir~


-Wednesday-
Back to school again for History class.
Such a bored day.Zz..
Went home and nap again then out for dinner with family.
Nice dinner we had although food does not satisfy us.
My mom entertain with me with silly jokes.

Before going out,
I scolded my puppy, Gal Gal.
She get frighten and pissed in the kitchen.
We laughed at her and teased her.

-Thursday-
So fast Thursday.
My fish, Mung mung has died.
Another Physics tuition at Connaught KFC.
Fate. I met the guy that went for driving test.
His not handsome in that uniform. lol..haha..
When I'll meet the other guy?haha..

-Friday-
Going to Genting.
This a future activity. lol..
And back on Saturday.


My holidays are just fully packed with activities.
But I have no idea on what activities.
*Nap= sleep.(I sleep for hours in the afternoon)
*Eat
*Facebook-ing
*Play with Gal Gal.
*Watch movies.

These what I do everyday.
Daily routine.
I just can't manage my time well.
This is why I'm afraid to tell Mr.Ananda what I did at home.
=.=
hehe..

...::* Busy Soon *::...

Gonna be less less less blogging.
Have to revise little by little for SPM trial.
Afraid of it..

My book!!!
Teacher scold me!!!
COW!!!
Laughed like hell with these work.haha..

-YOU COW, YOU!!! lol-

Today was the last PJK for us?
TT
We like to play.
Enjoy life. haha..
It should be theory class but we show no interest.
So, Mr.Rama brought us down and gave us balls.
Time to CRAZY!!!
Not on PMS. I'm active. haha..
Although not much people, is still a nice game.
A nice time is when we, friends able to be together.
POISON BALL!!!
A famous game among us since Junior.

Halim target me most the time and I blocked most of the time.
Ended up with bruises.
I don't love my body.
I hurt them frequently and not protecting myself.
This one of the reason I need a boyfriend.. haha.. LOL.

-SCARY?? UGLY??-

-Dar give me de.-

...::* *::...

This a expressing blog post by myself.
I'm feeling depressed for it.
So, I express by blogging.
You may take no notice on this.

Thank you***


His existence was not much in me.
However, he left behind the figures in my memory.
A sudden call drags ones to worries.
Members of family stayed up for every latest news.
"Do you know everyone worried for you?"
"How much tears and sorrow your family feels?"
"Again and again you make them worry."

No good sign for you had glowed.
Loved ones, ran up and down.
High hope for good sign.
Ended up.. with disappointments..
What can be done?
Nothing yet.


I just can't continue my sentence.
TT..

Nothing,
More than a bless for you.
May blessing given to you.
Chances for him again to the society.

...::* Dar's house *::...

Yesterday night I went to dar's house.
His sister's party.
Lol..

I wasn't sure that I'm attending or not.
But dar wants me to attend.
I was asked to prepare myself.
End up, his uncle came and fetch me.
Feeling not so good.

Feeling nervous when going to reach.
@@.
His families members were all there.
Shy***
Once get down from car,
Blood pressure went up once get down from car.
haha..
Meet up with his grandparents, uncles, and aunts.
Later his sister and husband.
@@..

Dar brought me to dining room and sat.
His aunt came and asked a few question.
Funny part was someone mistaken I was the bride.
Dar smiled at me..
His grandpa was like wanted to introduce to dar's uncles.
Dar and me forgets after we ate.

I went at 6pm and went home at 10pm.
This blog was like typing uneasily.
Due to the weird feelings. haha..

His uncles and aunts was like joking.
All commented that me and dar having couple shirts.
Actually dar asked me to wear pink.
When I saw him, he was in the pink too. @@.
I still have the nervous feeling. @@ haha..

Don't want to blog dy.
Very the @@.

-This the gift for his sister.-

-I decorated the box. too plain-

-My dress up to dar's house-
-He seldom smile so nice in pic(to me)-