...::* Lost *::...

Whoever doesn't like to be pampered?
No matter how strong you go,
You still feels the loneliness in some days.
Secure, love, and pamper..

Different people giving different feels.
How I wish to have a heartless living things.
That comes to me when I need it.
Goes away when I do not need it.
Feelings playing around in our heart.

Exams here but I'm not putting my effort in it.
I wants to get the scholarship but I'm not putting any effort on it.
Currently, my results showed that I can pass all subjects.
As for scoring, I have to fight in coming weeks.
Feelings come to be the distraction.
Hardly for me to control my feelings and emotions.

Whenever studies come to mind,
Problems start involving,
and I ended up with sleeping.

Avoid not a good way to solve.
Everyone knows about it but no one able to stop it.
Truth that everyone wants, not what everyone expected.

I'm totally lost.
I don't know what I want.
i don't even know how to express my feelings.
No one able to help myself if I don't help myself.
I wants to be alone in white place.
A place where I used to be during the previous months.

...::* So WRONG *::...

For this moment.
For this minute.
And this time.

I feel the guilty,
I feel the fa*king bitch existed in me.
I feel bad..

I broke his heart. ><
So damn MAX BAD..
My heart soring..

Sorry.. Sorry.. and sorry..
I know this will not be forgived.
This is a serious case that will be unforgiven.

I have been so childish since getting into college life.
I'm EXTREME CLOSE WITH FRIENDS.
Especially GUYS.
Even forgets the status of being couple?

Being love is something prefered by everyone.
I have it but... I'm not appreciating it??
I'm sorry. I'm a damn bitch..

I have been complaining about my boyfriend.
I did not realise the problems actually occured from me.
I blame. I blame him. I blame him more than blaming myself.
I'm selfish.
I should not be loved.
I should not have a boyfriend that treats me good.
I should not be having someone that love me more than I love him.

I'm not a good girlfriend.
I'm not spending my time with him.
I'm wasting most of my life in college.
Once I reach home, I'll be on my dream.
I don't care his feeling... ><

I'M SO THE WRONG THIS TIME...
I'M SO OVER...
I'M DAMN OVER...
OVER THE LIMIT...

...::* What you'll do? *::...

What will you do?
When you are not in the mood,
What will you do?

I'll eat and eat and eat.

I'll eat non-stop and uncontrollable when:
I'm happy,
I'm not happy,
Few days before monthly period.

Is there another way to realease all problems?
Sobbing? Is tiring to sob.

...::* Sneaked *::...

Seems to have too much of outings.
I sneaked out again?
OMG la.. What's this?
Skipped class.. lol..

Lecture class ended at 9 something and we headed to Times at 10 am.
What an embarassing momment I had. ><
Unforgiven for myself. haha..
We went for bowling at Times and to Gasonline for lunch.
I dropped the bowling ball just before my throw.. ><
Embarrassing.. >< The sound was so loud..
I can't stop laughing once I recall the moment.. ><
Gasoline food wasn't nice. DISLIKE.


Later, we went for KopiBoy after our class.
Ice Kacang makes me recover.^^
Three of us went for desserts only.
Head back to college and back home!!!

Home sweet home..
I love you so the much!!!
MY BEDTIME!!!
Such a wonderfull sleeps I've got. ><
I slept too much. haha..

Final is here.
Next week will be the final.
Why no feeling?
Neither preparing nor prepared.
Hanging around with useless stuff.
Stop all events and daydreaming.
GET TO STUDIES PLEASE..

...::* Meaningless *::...

Does make sense but I have to face it.
Stand up still and hold it strong.
Is barely to hold it but forced to hold.


I did not went home after a class and waited till 5 pm.
I really planned to take the shuttle bus with Ivy.
Travel along the way to Tasik Selatan-Northwing UCSI and back to Southwing.
The first bus came. As our buttocks were so heavy as we failed to carry it up.
The second bus arrived, as Amber wants to join us too.
While taking our queue, the bus were fulled.
We went on to Block A and used up our time there.


Today's me wasn't the real me.
No.. not me..
I skipped a class and walked alone all around the college.
As sky was so cloudy that gives me an enjoyable walk.
I sat aside enjoying the sky..
When the sky will fall?
As I was enjoying, I saw something happened.
A Honda City reverse and banged a Proton Saga.
Malaysia's car upgraded?
Both the car not injured.


My Life~~~
How I had coloured it, I had to be responsible with it.
Time flies damn fast. Take the challenge. Fight for whatever it is.
Face it, Go trough it and handle it till the last breathe I can.
Please grow. Is a MUST FOR YOU TO GET MATURE.
I believe I can fly~
I believe I can touch the sky~

Fine.. @@

I don't bursted,

I won't feel better.

Please let me burst to the MAX.

...::* Oppsy *::...

First of all, SORRY~~~ :)
Angin naik jor manyak..
Sudden anger came and bursted without purpose.. ><
So regretful.. FEEL SO BAD..
How can I do this to friends?
What is this?
YONG KA LING!!!


Woot... First formal presentation just passed.
No worries but nervous. ><
I get all numbers into my mind and deleted on the spot.
I LIKE YOU, VIVIAN TAN.. lol..
I hate you, "TWINS BROTHER".
We did not did it with purpose but instructed by lecturer la..
I failed!!! My presentation make me a failure.
I forgets, I refer, I look, I tongue twisted & I have no eye contact.
FAILURE NUMBER ONE IN PRESENTATION.


Hmm.. have to prepare for tomorrow's BABY CUTE (BBQ)
Busy, Buzzy, Busy, Buzzy, & Z, z, Z...
Meet you guys~~~ :P

...::* WHY AM I SO FREE~~ *::...

keke..
Why am I so free to blog in these days?
I'm just bored and do not know what to do.
That's why I am here. keke..

What I had realised.. hmmmmm..
My college friends were all with english name.
No english name don't be my friend..
Muahahahahaha.. JOKING*** hehe..
You guys just great..
Never taught of meeting you guys. LOL..
FAITH hor? IVY HOW, FATT GAN HAO~~~
(i duno wen u look at tis, I just wanna make u..haha.. :P)
Muuuuuu muuuuu muuuuu muuuu muaxxxx~~ wahahahahaha..


Presentation this Friday.. Oh no~~~ Takut ><
My job is to MEMORISE NUMBERS!!! no~~~
IS SO SO SO SO SO THE DIFFICULT!!!

I think most of you do not realise that I have difficulty in pronoucing "R" & "S" sound?
Thanks to you, CHAN WAI HOONG. lol..
I know is fun for you to listen to my "Internet Explorer".
Hmm.. I've got difficulty in a word. Tongue cacat..haha

YONG KA LING!!!!!!
YOUR VOICE SO THE BITCH!!!
YOU BITCHY VOICE!!!
lol.. do not criticise.. ><

Is God's give..
Thanks God.. :)
Sorry my dearest God.
Talk to you tonite. :)
hehe..

...::* Useless *::...

I rest a lot but is not really helping me. ><
I slept at 1 am and woke at 10am. (woke by someone) ><
I scan, I eat & I hang clothes.
Then I continue on9 till 3pm comes..

I went for bed again. ><
Sounds so bad. haha..
I slept until 5pm.
How I wish it feels better. Stop dreaming.
Neither worst nor better. haiz...
Immune system rosak >< haha.. Ki siao..

Guess What?? Guess what???
KA LING SKIP CLASS TOMORROW!!!
wow~ KaLing also skip class de..
My very first time to skip class.. haha..

I'll make sure i'll go bed at 11.30pm tonite!
Is a M-U-S-T!!! OKAY?? haha..

I want GAT ZAI SHUI~~~

...::* BORED *::...

Sienz..

...::* Not allowed *::...

I need cooler.
My internal body's temperature is high.
Started since before I had my this month's period.
My pimples showing up non-stop. ><

I can't breathe~~!!! arhhh~~ booooo~~~ roar!!!
I'm not having a flu or sore throat.
I have no idea on what they are.
I have got minor cough, kinda a lot of phlegm, and nose stuck with nothing.
Disable me to breathe. >< GASPING FOR AIR~~~ lol.. (crazy)

Time changed. Nope. My daily schedule changed.
Napping hours increases and I woke up damn late from my nap.
Nowadays, I took 2-3 hours of nap. What's this!!!
I'll take a LONG, LONG & EXTREMLY LONG REST in my little Sem break.

Presentations!!!!!!!!!!
Get my voice box back and all out!!! ><
SICKNESS & ILLNESS NOT ALLOWED!!!

Hmm.. why should it be like this.
Each time when BBQ event coming soon,
I'll have sore throat.
Please~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Not this time. >< hehe..

WO HAO LE QI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...::* YoYoYo *::...

Pretty busy these days.
What else?
College life.

First sem gonna end?? wooohooo~~
Is third month. phewwwww~~
Many lessons I had learnt throughout the months.
All kinds of human getting into my life too.
Is exciting yet tiring. ><
Give me a break! >< haha..
I did something bad today. ><
I know is very bad. SORRY~~ hehe..
Feel so sorry, Dootz Dootz I'm so sorry~

I've been hanging myself in the previous week.
Coming weeks will be filled with nervous.
I did my very first presentation today!!!
OMG!!! I present without preparing anything.
Sounds "LAO YA" but we are the first group to present.
Also the first group who dare to raise up our hand and get to them.
Sadly some exciting slides unable to show up.
I must show it in coming presentation.
Let you guys "WOooOW" with it.. lol..

Fui~ Yoh!
I'm hyper today. No idea to answer you "WHY".
Why~ Why~ Tell me why~

I meet someone in WONG KOK this afternoon.
Fui~Yoh~ I get crazy.. haha..
Non-stop 'HI-ing' with him. lol..
I do mean HI-BYE's hi but not get high.. okay..haha
I know I'm Superb crazy..

hmmmmmmmmm.....
Ntg to say dy..
SORRY DUDE.. haha.. ><

...::* End of Midterm *::...

Mid term had just end last Thursday for all subjects.

I'm not in the luck as I should in the luck.

Too close..

The seat with average difficulty paper should goes to me.

Sadly, I let the seat to my dearest friend.

I would had the easier paper instead of tough paper.

The lecturer just great.

Making 3 sets of paper and I get the tough ones..

I'll remember you, B1!!!

You make me tension!!!

You make me pressure!!!

You make me wanna burst out!!!

Lucky for all of you guys that take B paper. ><

Guess what???

KA LING WATCH PORN!!! lol.. ==

Friday was my Film & Arts Appreciation subject.

Every after lecture a movie will be played.

The previous one screened some 18sx thing but still censored type.

This time.. OMG man!!!

Why pornographic movie to be screened??? Zz..

Few more classes to go.

What will be the next pronographic movie?

What's the level of the pornographic movie? Zz.. lol la..haha

Dig-dugging formal cloths for in case.

Every presentation I don't wish to wear formally.. ><>

How I wish so.

Is a problem for me to have formal cloth that suit my size and length. Zz..

Most of it short and wide.. I'm long and small.. @@

Current colour cloth I seeking: Blue.

Going for yellow next time.