...::* Depression *::...

Sorry my Gal Gal.. muaxx..

Yesterday I was so depressed and I bursted.
I rolled my tears and flooded my room. (lol.. jk^^)

I was trying to log into facebook's game, country story.
Doesn't seems to work..
My mom put her bowl of soup beside laptop.
I was sitting on floor and laptop was charging while I playing.
My fc*king sister, with her blind eyes, tripped over the charger that I connected.
The wire goes along and pulled the soup along.
The whole soup poured on my lap and I just finish my bath.
Freaked out!!!
I have no tempered although she had did that.
But, my parents blamed on me and this cause me not feeling "ALRIGHT".
I wanted to roll my tears on the spot. (I didn't)

I bathed again along with tears... @#$%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm not feeling alright after all.
I can't control my emotion.
I have emotional problem?

I know I shouldn't throw my temper on my little puppy, Gal Gal.
Sorry for kicking you, throwing you, punching you..
I can't stop myself doing it..
I just can't...

I went to bed around 11.00 pm.
I started to burst into tears...
I can't stop my cry for 30 minutes...
Feeling okay during the conversation with my dar.
Later, around 1am we offed and went for bed.
Unable to sleep and I started to burst my tears again.

I get more energetic after cries.
I can't make myself to dream... TT

This morning wasn't in a good condition due to lacking sleeps and tired of crying.
I have to do my EST exam.
After all, I tried to nap in class but fail to fall asleep.
The essay for EST today was about INSOMNIA, a sleeping disorder.
While reading, I wanted to know more about it.
This is because I felt like having it.. lol.. haha..

I'm kinda suspect whether I had psychology problem.. haha..
My mood swings in sudden and I can't control it by myself.
Emotion goes up and down in just seconds.

I found myself crying on bed few weeks a time.
I don't get what I cry for at times.
Maybe pressuring or depressed. NO IDEA~~~ haha..

My tiny bow bow.. lol..
He brings me joy and clam me down most of the time.
The one who I spend most of my sadness.
The one who willing to waste his time and life with me.
He is the one who willing to let me do anything on him for my happy^^
I lub you~~~ lol.. haha

...::* Nothing *::...

Nails turned purple.. (Cold)^^
Having warm from Dar~

Lub dar dar..

Lub Kit Kit^^

Devil look^^

...::* Scar Scar *::...

Number of scars on my body keep increasing!!!
My girl girl's fingernails are long.
Everytime she jumps and scratch.
We commented that she is cloned from dog and cat.
Lol.. She make noises like cat. She "MEOW".
She ate two bottle with a big pack of fish food.
Pity fish have to suffer without food for weeks.
She ate turtle's food too.

Till now,
I have more than scars that not going off.
I don't know it will goes off or not.
It looks ugly.

-Latest scar-

-Longer than mine-

...::* Girl Girl *::...

My little pup had her name.
We named her Girl Girl but I usually call her 'Lui Lui'.
She is superb N-A-U-G-H-T-Y!!!
She is funny & noob too.
Everytime i carry her up,
She pee. (she is crazy)

No idea why she isn't afraid of scolding and hitting.
She will show her butt when you wants to hit her.
She will continue biting when you scold her.

I usually have male dogs and all listen to us.
This female dog is the naughtiest among all.
Here she is...
haha..

-HiHi-






-Haha-
-MuaxxxxX-








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This a side post.
I was clearing my stuff in cupboard and I found this things.

-Do you guys remember this?-

Mr. Zul's signature.
This was taken during my form 2 from exam time table.
I still remember what he said.
The paper throw never mind.
But must tear his signature out and keep.
This is why the paper still kept with me^^ haha..

This key followed me for years since Junior 6.
My job is to take care of a cupboard in 6 Biru. lol..
Madam Leong gave me this key.^^
I still keeping it nicely and well.
I wandering where I keep and bring along everyday to school.
Long term memory lost. haha.
Not much memories I kept.

I'm crazy to keep a stone for years too.
I don't remember when I started keeping it.
I think it was during Junior 4 or 5.
A girl told me to pick a stone from the ground.
And it will bring luck for me. LOL..
Lame huh? haha..

Whatsoever, these three things will continued keeping by me.
In my cupboard.^^
Rent a bank and keep it^^ haha..

...::* Thieves!!! Fire!!! *::...

I went to bed around 12 am.
"DIP DAP DIP DAP.."(mom and dad running downstair)
I was awake by their steps and I went to my brother's room peeked out.
@@. Bunch of people outside gathering.
Noises, Screams, and Calls.
Everyone seems to be alerting each other.

I went down and joined with my parents.
Looking at next door house.
Smoke escaping from roof.
"Fire!! Fire!! Getting bigger!!" My neighbour shouted.
"Why the owner not getting out of their house?" everyone asking.
"Go wake everyone up" my dad command me and my mom.

I grabbed my phone and wakes my sister.
Run down and continue watching what was happening.
After 10 minutes, the owner came out with her daughter.
She screamed
"There is people in my house!!"
"I saw their figure pass by my room!!!"
"CCTV not functioning!!"
"Phones all not working!!"
"The back doors was opened!!"
Her daughter was stunned having her bear.

My parents quickly ask us to grab all our valuable things.
I ran up to my room grabbed my 2 other phones and a wood.
Not a wood that thin like me. haha..
Here come the "HERO", the guard. haha
Without thinking, he walked into the house with torch light.

My next door neighbour called for the police.
She on loudspeaker and the police said:
"Sabar, sabar, kita sedang datang."
Everyone was angry with them and also the firemen.
They can't find our place.

After all,
The police with the firemen checked up everything.
They said that was just fire from the fan.
That makes all her electronic in her house all burnt.
Her house was all black.
All electronics were burnt and gone.

She has mistaken that there were thieves.
Pity. Everything in her house were gone.
Everything took around 40-50 minutes.
The event make everyone awakes and unable to fall asleep again.
Lucky I'm not going school today. haha..
I slept around 3.30 AM after everything.

...::* Mix *::...

SPM trial started.
Chemistry paper 1 i get 24 only.
I have 12 marks.
Very scare!!!
I don't want to have D i want a B (if possible).^^


Wednesday dar made me breakfast along with biscuits.
Nice~ hehe..
On Friday, he made egg with "halia".
Nice o.0~
He can cook very much better than me.
I cook that egg ended up with black shit. lol.. (i'm serious)
My cooking sux^^.



I'm having PMS now.
Symptoms started since this week.
I'm afraid I get major pain during menstruation.
I'll be having Add maths examination that time.
Poor Add maths I guess? haha..

I brought something on Friday.
When K meets L haha..
I broke me fingernail making this.^^

-broken nail.-

@@
Just know went for Pasar malam at Anggerik after dinner.
When going home, our car passing by a narrow road with car parked by side.
Three boys were trying to walk passing our car side.
They didn't notice my dad had open the window. (i guess)
He voiced "NYA MA, FAI DIT GOH LA (faster go la)."
My dad get angry and stops the car and tried to catch the boy.
@@ I was stunned. haha..
Both the boy ran away and another boy was shocked and stayed still.
His eye was like frighten. haha..

Has been a long long time never seen my dad this way.. hehe..
When I was young,
he throws mobile phone on us when we make noise during his calls.