Showing some LOVE? but....

Is been day by days SMS-ing with guyB le...


His msg is so..... ''WOW'' ??
no one will noe how '' SWEET'' tat can be???
aniway, i duno how describe the msg.. ^^

his early msg today was..

''haha wo de ai xin sushi gang gang nong hao ba le~
wo jiu lai yao qu xue xiao le~ deng zhu zhu o^^''
(my sushi just finish made, i'm going to come to school, wait o^^)

he did make me SUSHI and SALAD too..

he SMSed me last night too.
there's about 3 msg tat's ''SWEET''
oh my god la~~

''ai xin sushi''

early in the morning i went to his class(before schl starts),
he came with the SUSHI n SALAD (he looks hapi??)
he gave it to me.. his frens asked

FriendA: Y today suddenly make sushi come?
guyB: u aso make food come i aso duno ma..
FriendB: make for_____*** ma...

Am i bad?
i asked 2 of my girl friends beside me to eat together^^
i duno how he feels.. hurt??
i eat the ''SUSHI'' bt din eat salad..

Rrrring...(time up)
i went to take my book from my class and back again to his class
cuz is Moral and we have to join class.

watched my friend open his present den i copy notes given by teachers.

guyB came n asked..

guyB: na ge salad yao ma?
me: mami zhao shang da bao le mian gei wo chi..
guyB: mei guan xi, na ge sushi ne?
me: deng xia zai chi guo ba?
guyB: ok

then after tat his fren hlp to finis up le..^^
HURT HIM?????(no idea le..)

aiz..
to me, his sweetness made me feel hurt.
I duno wat he feel bt i really feel hurt.
Never a guy treat me gud.

Wat to do??
his been rejected twice aso bo giv up.
He really too loves me?
I duno how appreciate la..
What to do??
aiz..

Frustrated with LOVE~

Is apart that continues from the previous? (mayb)


No longer,
a guy(noe 2years ago n nvr meet b4) asked me to be his gf?
well.. strangers, i've rejected..

and so on.. here come another..
let it b the guy B??
his my classmates last time and schoolmates now..
i've been sms-ing wit him day by day..
care bout me, asking me to drink water, early to bed.
His not bad actually, but i treat him as apart of my best friend..
I've taught of GIVING CHANCE?
bt... my heart keep says that he is just my friend..
and is about TWICE i REJECTED?
bt his not giving up???
he still on and on caring about me..
Most of them asked me to have try on cuz he is not bad??
aiz.. from there i was so frustrated..

he gets to know tat i'm not happy cuz of him.
he smsed me n say sry wen in school..
back home i told him tat i'm fine and i decided not to care..
just ignore everything n stay HAPPY..

The day before yesterday,
My ex asked me back..
showing some love is so difficult?
is it a noob n lame kind he did?
sending I LOVE YOU words oli..
and tat's the way he show his love..

Yesterday,
I smsed with guyB
i can feel his having HIGH HOPE of having me SOON..
i reali duno how to talk.. afraid of hurting him??

My ex, he was sick so i take decision to care about him..
Asking him to take medi n drink water and chatted..
Now he asked me back because he felt LONELY tat no one care him.
Asked me to let he have the chance to go along with me..
will i? should i?
i realy duno.. all i noe is i'm CONFUSED.
I reli duno wat he is tinking. PLAYING? or REAL?
and we argued agan? den v stopped sms awhile.

at night,bout 9pm? he smsed me n say tat he nid go for operation.
taking PITY?
so i can agree of COUPLE BACK wit him?or is REAL PROBLEM?
i reli duno all i noe is i'm WORRY.
from here.. i started to get back to my old world?
WORRIED bout him!!!
started to CRY for him agan..

Is so difficult and pain wen u r not hapi n nid to ACT to b hapi..
cuz i'm sms-ing guyB he is so hapi in the conversation
So i dun1 him to get sad so i decided to act hapi in the msg.
the same time msn wit my ex haiz.. is reli sad? sad? sad?
My ex asked me to promise him if the operation was going smoothly v nid to couple back.

till now i realy duno what to do and how..
is so confusing..

MAY GOD BLESS HIM and EVERYONE~~

Tears running all the way from heart..

aiz..duno want how start le..1 month 1 week 2day..
well, have been broke for the days..

what to say about me?
i really duno..
LOVE TOO DEEP?
or
STUPID?


He so wanted to dump me..
from day by days keep on saying break up..
And this days i was so stupid!!!
Keep on asked not to leave me, not to break me and let me be his half..
And let him HURT SO MUCH..
I still remember what he answer my questions and what he said...

Me: u dn luv me dy?
Him: I duno.
Me: Y u want to leave me?
Him: cuz i feel more happy with my friends.
Me: All the times and years we together, u r not happy at all.
Him: NO.
Me: All the words u say tat u luv me is all lies? al to make me hapi?
Him: Ya, all is just to let you happy.
(in the same time i heard song by LI SHEN JIE.. and on the spot i cried...)

Then, he promised nt to leave me..
Keep on tinking n tinking about what's happening
And What he wants?
Day and Night tinking bout him.
Pray tat we will not end.
He seems nt to k..although my bday is just few days coming VERY NEAR..
And he say that he wants to break agan..
AGAN n AGAN i let him hurt and cry so much and this all reli useless and STUPID too.
Everyone asked IS THAT WORTH ??
i reli confused and duno wat to do..haiz..

On 17th March, 11.30pm. Is a good way?
I smsed him and i've said tat juz end it as he wish too..
He was HAPPY ? (tis mayb)
At the same time, is realy the feeling to JUMP ON BED wandering how happy was that?(bt i din)


(u may skip here)
On my bday!!! is 18!!!
to the school happily~~~ WEE~~presents waiting for me~~ is all mine!!
n.. TURTLE!! yes babe.. (nw die dy..TT)

I've celebrated my bday nt on 18 bt 22(chinese bday)...
tis the 1st day he asked me back in sudden..
well.. i did invite him bt he have no transport so he din appear in my party..
aniway.. my frens are here ^^

from days and weeks he started to asked me back.. haiz..
i did avoid him at times..
cuz i dun reli 1 love dy??
i duno is confuse..
LOVE IS COMPLICATED

''NooBie LING''

Well..
This my FIRST blog.. Just signed up..

''NO IDEA BOUT WHAT TO WRITE''

Hmmm... I think i'll start describe bout MYSELF??

THIS ME!!! kAmBinG

I'm kAmBinG, Kai Xin Ling
2008, Sweet SixTeeN BaBy This Year
Well.. Having 45kg and 165cm
I do EAT ALOT but it growing upwards nt sideways ^^

Addicted with GLOWING GREEN
GreenBlackPink=PerfecT ColouR (to me)
Studying in Sekolah Sri Murni (S.S.M)
since JUNIOR 1 till now on so on too
Enjoying LIFE this ''YEAR''(maybe)
Loves to get....

CRAZY
NAUGHTY
FUNNY
FRIENDLY
LAZY
STUPID
NOOB


i have no idea on myself now.. haha..