...::* MOVED *::...

POTATO HAD MOVED!!!

kai-xin-ling.blogspot.com

SEE YOU THERE..
BUH BYE. :-)

...:* Crying over splited milk *::...

What's the point of crying over splited milk?
USELESS!!!
You will never change!!!
Yes!! I am not changing!!

Woooooohhhhhh~~~
I am highly stressed up with problems.
The S&S life I have got.
Stupid & Stubborn.

Why am I in these ways? Why?
You can't blame too much.
Seriously. I am born to be.
I'm getting tough.
The yesterday me will cry from any shooting.
Today me, hold it tight and embed it.
He shoot me and I'm just ignoring.
Comes to be an attitude since I failed? Partially true.
There STUBBORN is stained in me.

I do not like to share as I like to hide.
After reading through articles, I found myself to have hypersomnia too.
I fell asleep easily during noon and it took hours for me to wake.
My life is just STUPID with these kind of daily schedule.

Hiaz...
I had enjoyed my days with leisures.
Now what? Rushing and running without a stops.
Can I have a bus stop?
I rather sleep more and die in the young age.
Doesn't matter if 2012 really comes true for me but I don't think so it will come true.

Assignments!!! Mid term!!! Quizzes!!!
I tends to cry in first term as it was the first time handling the problem.
As for second sem, I come to feel stress and I don't feel like crying.
Instead I sleep and sleep and sleep.

I stressed myself till I woke in the middle night and thinks of my assignment topic.
Middle night should be the best dreaming season.
Sadly I was awake and think of ways to solve problem.
As problem not solved I will not be having normal life.

...::* Again *::..

Hohoho.. Merry X'mas!! @@
I got it again. haha..
What I got?
I got mumble early morning from my BayB.
What will it be about? SAME TOPIC!!! haha..
He has got a daddy style. *tumbs up* lol..

Everyone taking benefits from me.
Using me wor..
"Will you like if someone treat you everyday?"
"Will you feel bad if everyday ask help from the same human?"
"What I tells you never get into your mind."
"You are stubborn. Can't you please say NO for once?"
"Once doesn't mean really one time ONLY"
"You have rights to say no!!!"
"Help but with limit to yourselves"
"Axxxx is a troublesome guy doesnt matter we are friends, help him."
"Not to those who are unknown"
"See, everyone getting help from you."
"You never change!! Don't give me that stupid face."
"Once again I will not care about you."
"Don't you know how to talk?"
"If I were Lxxxx, you would not be getting this scolding ONLY."
"Do not tell me is your character. It can be change"
"Why you like that? Why??? Can you let me know why?" *He smiles :)*

Once again the same trend.
Get mumbled for the same things. lol..
I can remember what he said.
Well, i helped out for PEOPLE's assignments.
What now? Quizzes for unknown.
Giving a hand is what my responsibility. lol..
A call for me I will just answer YES.
Don't you dare ask me to marry you.
Definitely a NO for you. :)

The one who doesn't knows how to say NO.
So the stubborn wor.. lol..
I have no idea why am I in the way.
I'm trying to get into the society.
No one had betrayed me till now la..
I'm still protected. ==

Tutor said:
Science student likes to argue back.
They are more to facts.
Art students think more wide.
This proved that I have science quality. lol.. JOKING.

I'm trying to learn. ==
Trying to THINK. ==

...::* Lifeless *::...

Feel so lifeless.
Daily routine have to turn up to college before 8am.
Return from college around 5.30 or 7pm.
What a lifeless life.
So call a daily routine and I have to get use with it? huh?

Activate since 6.45am.
Recharge or so call nap at 5.30pm.
Reactivate at 7.30pm.
Totally deactivated at 1 or 2 pm.
Is so tiring. A tiring and hectic life.
How I wish to enjoy life.
Sadly, no.
Life to be enjoy after 55 years old.
Retiring age. ==

Is so dirty to get to bed without taking a bath.
So what? Is my bed. I need rest desperately.
Worst part of me is that, I had give less care to my babies.
Feels so bad. I have not been feeding them daily.

Even facebooking had been reduced. (I guess)
Too many to do. The road wasn't easy to get through.
I'm tired!!!!!!!!! A month had passed.
Second month.. On going with midterm. Is tiring.
Day and night quiz!!! test!!! exams!! assignments!!!

Running none stop is what a life is.
And is so lifeless.
Lifeless human. Tired is what human got.

...::* Ethnics *::...

Currently I'm undergoing with Introduction to Business class.
To survive in this world and to be a successful businessman/woman,
We have to be a good liar. Especially to marketer.
I had finish my lectures on the topic of ethnics.

3 main things when come to ethnical dilemma.
IS IT ILLEGAL?
IS IT BALANCE?
HOW DO YOU FEEL AFTER YOUR DECISION?

Lecturer says that he feel bad to lie for the first month.
Same goes to the second month.
When third month comes, he thinks:
"If I do not lie to them, others will lie to them also."
It make senses but I can't take it too.
Lying is so hard to be done.


My FIRST TIME into Cyber Cafe!!!
I went in with June June.
My VERY FIRST TIME.
I do not feel good entering there.
The atmosphere was quite good.
It wasn't as bad as I thought.
June brought me to CC!!!!!! Lol..

It was shocking to my dear one.
He called up "where are you?"
"erm.. I'm outside.. CC.. @@"
"With who!!!???"
"erm.. June, I'll get to you now"
"okay okay.."

Phewwwww~
He did not get mad at me.
I now it was shocking. hehe..
A dao fu fa kills everything. ^^

...::* Habits *::...

Supplementary paper aka kind of July paper in my college.
I get marginal fail in my Economics and I'm into supplementary paper.
It took my 1 month away. What a waste.
Semester 2 come to be an lazy semester for me.
Ever since the first day, I had not been staying and studying.
I loiter all round Cheras area.

Eat, play, talk and love.
These all we done throughout a month.
What a waste? Yea~ IS SO THE WASTE!!!
I must stop!!! Time for studies!!!

Stop making it a habit and starts to get lazy and stops all work.
I must not let myself into another supplementary.
Is so expensive.

I must stop myself getting around.
Must stay and study.
Test passed and I treat it as nothing?
Why am I with the habit!!!
I have to brush myself up..
Please!!! Brush!!! Brush!!! Brush!!! haha..

MidTerm will be starting this Saturday and I am still enjoying my time.
Have to change. A must.

...::* Tasks *::...

I feel bad.

I failed in a task given by Ken.

I lost his earing. So sorry for it.

I had reminded myself to take it.

This the first responsible given to me.

I must take care of it but I failed. ><

FAILURE...





From now on, I will make myself a new task.

Listen to what Ken says.. lol..

He won't make me to the dead road. haha..

I had not been listening and what he says always to be right.



No need to re-evaluate, I did not listen and I pay extra RM30 for re-evaluate.

Results come to be same and no changes.



The shop is not open and can see from here.."keras kepala" Let me go!!!

Ended up walked to the shop and is close. @@



Lobak Gou not nice. I called and is tasteless. Yucks..



Throughout these few examples, I should listen to what people says.

haha.. This the first task in my life to change myself? haha..

Should try to give a success to it. keke..



Tomorrow will be the day.

Economics!!! Result is here.

Our hardwork had successed for Algebra & Trigonometry!!!

Congratz June & Ken!!! big success I got.



Next target!!! Quantitative Method.. Trying my very best.. hehe..

...::* Golden Screen Cinema *::...

LOL to the MAX..

Today we had our class and later,
Me and KenNie went for movie in Leisure Mall.
My first movie that costs RM 12.
We went for couple seats again. LOL.

Leisure Mall's GOLDEN SCREEN CINEMA..
Dot dot dot..
I was asked for IC. lol..
I look young!!! Wahahahaha..

THANK YOU, MEI THENG!!!
hehe.. For the account.. haha..

...::* Stress *::...

I stressed up myself and I went on being alone in a place.
I tried to calm myself and I failed.
I bursted. Wakakakaka.

The exams would be good?
I have no idea with it.
I just don't like economics.
I should challenge myself into Accounting?
hmmmmmm... ACCA sounds professional. @@ haha..


Currently I would like to announce that I'm in a NEW LIFE.
Yes!!! I'm not independent.
I'M IN MY THIRD RELATIONSHIP!!!
Who's the unlucky guy??? hehe..
I sounds so bitchy with the "third relationship" @@

I'm a play girl that had changes 2 boyfriend in 5-6 years time.
I'm not independent enough. I'm depending on others.
I just cannot bring myself up to be independent. huhuhu..
Doesn't matter. I will still be loved. :)


UNLUCKY YOU, YAP KEN NIE!!!!!!! :P

A month had passed.
Time to start our fight and flight to another semester!!!
I had got a hectic life in this semester.

Intro to business- not interest (struggle)
Quantitative - cant understand (struggle)
Computing - need memorise (struggle lagi)
Writting - needs creativity (again struggle)
Account - format ( struggle)

Whole semester need memorising more than working.
I'm dying......
Memory low.. SO LOW!!!

...::* Random *::...

Economics will be here.
I'm worried. Very worried.
I'm stressing, pressuring and tensioning mood.
I'm not happy. I wants to be pampered.
I have no ways of expressing.
I'm so so so tired of it.

I want to cry. I want to express...

I have no class on Tuesday but I lied and stayed in college.

I planned to study. I'm such a failure.

Already weeks I studied and stressed on Economics.

Nothing come to me. Economics just doesn't come with me.
The more I study, the more I forget.
Today I manage to eat up Lecture 6 only.

I will forget about it in coming days.

I'm so dissapointed with myself.

Why am not working on it.
I'm getting lazy.

I come to a place where I can be alone.
High up looking at peoples and mother nature.

Dear sunny, you came and shined on me.
You pushed me away from the nice place.

I want to have sugary food or junks.
I'm having toothache.
I can't have too much and I must reduce.
I'm stress.. Very stressing..

I must make myself pass. I have to.. I have no other ways.

I had been to Singapore, Johor and Melaka past weekend.

I saw this in a paper. I thought POKAI is a chinese word?

...::* Satisfy *::...

Weeeeeee~~~
I'm so happy and feels so satisfy.. :)
Relaxed. Is time for myself. hehe..

Stupid me.
I sat for hours in library,
Facing block C.
Keep on looking towards 5th floor. Noob!!!
haha.. I'm so sleepy and worry!!!
Till you come and give me a smile~~~
Weeeeeeeee~~~~~
Thanks guys!!! hehe..


My turn to stress up!!!
Thursday is here!!!
Soon!!! Very soon!!!
Panick? Panick?
hehe.. Gambateh!!!
MEMORISE!!! haha..

...::* Worries *::...

Is time to worry.
Time fior Economics.
I must not fail this time.
I had wasted RM230.

What I had read week ago had totally forgotten.
What to do???
Re-read and re-memorise from A-Z.
This exam will be much more difficult for me.
As it will be more to theory than calculations.
I should had work hard for the othe 3 marks to pass.
Is just 3 more marks!!!

Have to work hard for coming Thursday.
Struggle myself to death.
Please push me to study!!!
Push me!!! I'm slacking.
I'm still enjoying and loitering around.
My mood is not here.

Ken Nie Nie~~~
You must not fail too.
My hard work for you, i don't want to have dissapointment.
Economics should be nothing to you.
As you can memorise the theory.
Good Luck.

June June~~~
You are not appearing for 2 weeks.
Monday will be the big day.
Where have you been.
We are worry for you to the max.
I'm sorry that failed to help you out on Sat & Sun.
I feel bad. I don't wanna leave. Sorry.
Good Luck to you too!!

Aaron~~~
Sorry that I can't help at all.
Hope you able to pass and score.
Everything will be fine!!!
Good Lucky to you three!!! hehe..

Lastly,
Good luck to my little KAMBING!!!!!
Please!!!!!!!! Please pass me. hehe.. :)

...:* Random *::...

Current song : she will be loved
Current mood : average


Yesterday had been another history for future. lol..
I'm worry..
I'm worry for my supplementary paper.
I have not prepared for it.

Sacrificing is what fishy does most of the time.
hehe.. No worries.. Fishy always blessed. ^^
Hardworking on monday.
No slacking. No playing. No loitering. No lunch.
Have to work hard till coming Thursday end. ^^

All the best for each and everyone of us who are taking supplementary.
Aaron Chin,
June June,
Ken Nie &
Myself.

GAMBATEH!!! hehe.. :)

...::* What i want *::...

Opportunity cost!!! haha..
To gain him, have to sacrifice on helping people.
Or else everything will come to be same as in pass.
Why should fishy go this way?
Is it a good or a bad attitude?

Sacrificing always come first before all.
Main sacrifice done will be myself and my time.
I always wanted to sleep early nowadays.
Sadly, most of the time i ended getting to bed after 12am.
Either assignment, homeworks, accompany others, or solve others problem.
I'm not used to reject helping people.
I reject myself.

My ex, always rejected by me.
I spent more time with friends more than him.
I know in future, no matter what and how,
I still be the same.
Helping others will be much more important than my time.

I DON'T KNOW WHAT AM I BLOGGING!!!

I'm in exam pressures. ><
I guess. ><
Have to consume less sugar.
MUST STAND and HOLD ON.
LESS SUGAR!!!

...::* Blackie *::...

I done it.
Dear Blackie,
I done it.

I go through my days with smiles and joys..
I know this what you want from me.
I will not let you down in the coming years.
You will never want me to cry for you any.
You will wants me to forget about you.

As I can say is,
I will not forget every memories you had given to me.
You will always in me. You are with me. You still belongs to me.
I will not let you go but I will not cry for you anymore.
I try not to. I try not to cryh for you anymore.
I LOVE YOU, Blackie.

...::* Luck *::...

I should think positive!!!
POSITIVE!!!!!

I read my horoscope in some sites.
Is 90% truth about me. :)
Part of it says:
I'll think negative and the negative thinking will come true.
Wow~ should think more positive.
Less negative. hehe..


I had been attacked by UNLUCKY for previous week.
So the sad. I'm SO WEAK!!!
I have no place and no where to release my problems.
So sad you know? hehe..

Lucks coming from this week.
I have to stay as strong as possible.
Although I'm internally weak. hohoho..
I want to depend on someone. May I? hehe..
Please YONG KA LING!!!
Wake up!!! Stop your fantasy world. hehe..


Top 5 horoscope that gives happiness after marriage:
Fishy is the second!!!

Male fishy : Cares for the wife. No matter what happen, the wife will be the first in his mine. Being his wife, will get the feeling of "princess".

Female fishy : Willing to sacrife everything without any condition. Is all mens wishes to have them.

hohoho.. so true.. haha..
I had let go a fishy. I had not appreciate the fishy appeared in my life.
I had set the fishy go and I'm going to sacrifice myself for others?
I'm born to give services and cares?
I should not get the care and secure from others.
I'm here give loves.. hehe..

Fishy also likes to act like a spoiled child. (true)
Fishy have all kinds of funny and fancy faces. (true)
Fishy gets peoples happiness easily. (yes gua?)

Is 90% true.
Same goes to my dear.
wahahahaha.. Get to know your personality^^

Should had learnt this. haha.. :P
Lucks coming!!!
I must do my best in everything.
Think positive!!! Get positive!!!


Love Ling.
MuaxxX.. Lub yah..

...::*lalalalalala *::...

No worries, Be happy. :)

Time to get back to normal!!!

Weeks of time not camwhore-ing.

Let's start the habit?

Nope. Is kinda lazy to do it.

Is waste of time actually. haha..

Let's get fun with my dearest one and also food?

I mean my bread. haha..

...::* Back *::...

Emotional imbalance visits me when I lack of sugar?
Mooncake festival coming!!! Plenty of mooncakes and is sweet!!
I had consumed too much yesterday night.
Almost a whole mooncake.
I guess it had help me to balance back my emotion?
Thanks mooncakes.^^ (toothache-ing) haha..
Nice~ From the SIX HAPPINESS. Thank you.
You do contain happiness in your mooncakes. haha..


I had accepted everything that had passed?
but my heart is not totally cured. (i guess)
Nevermind. Time will be the medicine.
Meanwhile, is time to fight.
Although I have no feeling of fighting.
GTF- GOT TO FIGHT!!!
WAKE UP!!! IS TIME TO FIGHT!!!
PROMISE...
8x2=16
16 days time.
I'm the winner!!! You will be mine!!!
YOU ARE TAKEN!!!

MuaxxxxX!!!
Love my life. (although hate comes mostly..hohoho..)

...::* Disaster *::...

Beginning of the month had turned into a disaster for me.
Everything turned to be worries and dissatifactions.
A bad sign had shown to me.
Nothing go smoothly as I wished for.
Not at all.

I blamed myself.
I blamed. I blamed for everything.
I'm such a FAILURE.

I had failed to help you guys, Ken & June.
I had failed to look for both the lecturers.
I had failed to be a better secretary of yours.
I had failed my economics.
I had failed to control my emotions.
I had failed. Totally failure.

The war that had not faced before had made my emotional imbalance.
You'll see me LOL now, and I'll COL in minutes.
Showing the sad me is the worst thing in my life.
As everyone knows I will always be smiling and laughing.

I have been crying TOO FREQUENT.
I'm not independent enough.
Even I had went into National Service.
No matter what and how am I,
I need a some one.
The one that I wish to share my problems.
The one who willing to be my good listener.
Maybe I'm too depending on people, that's why I always into a relationship.
I will not be independent?
This my life?
Dependent life?

Can September end fast and soon?
Can it? Is very struggling.
I'm suffering right now.
Is pain and the sore doesn't leave.
Is really a very hard and tough route.
I failed to control my emotions.
Crazy numb me as I can no more use sleep to numb.
I have no time for sleeps. Not at all.
I have to hold, hide and stand on my own feet.

I sat alone and tears just rolled out automatically with sore in my heart.
I held so hard not to scares off public.
UCSI University have no better place for loneliness.
Everywhere were humans and disturbance.
There isn't a place for me and I can't do so.
It might shock my elder sister.
What I can do is just hold on.

I'm not totally cure.
Not because my problems not solved.
Is because I had not cried all out.
I have no place, no time, no ways to cry.
I need a hug. I need a hug desperately.
I'll hug you tight and cry out loud. (if I would really do so)

...::* Hate September *::...

Arrival of you had not shown any good thing.
Too many unwanted things had happened.
I don't want to accept.
I don't want!!! OKAY?
Can I please don't accept it?
Please leave me alone!!!!!!!!!!


I had been desperately for it.
Why should it come to the way that I never wished?
Stubborn baby..

I smiled and laughed when I saw it.
It just doesn't suits my mood.
I'm worried. Not for myself but something else.
Fortunately, everything will be fine/ already fine?

Instead..

I have to give thanks to God for the settlement.

Thanks God for being with me all this while.

All the while you had been blessing.

Thanks God.

Thank you. I really appreciate you deeply from my heart.

Thank you, God.

Home everything to be fine.
Let all of us go through every of these difficult time.
Bless us once again. Please God.
Bless for Yap Ken Nie, economics, algebra & trigonometry in sup, and his everything.
Bless for Terence Ling Hong Wei, gets the approval of sitting sup paper.
Bless for Aaron Chin Lik Fung, your accounts, PTPTN and your everything too.
Bless for Looi Chai June, algebra & trigonometry.
Bless for Chan Wai Hoong, account and Physics.
Last but not least... Bless for myself.
Pass my Economics in coming sup paper..


I'm totally not in the mood now.
Time to worried for myself.
Everything had been settled.
Is time for myself.

Emotional Imbalance again...